"I'd like that." I stared lovingly into my amazing girlfriend's eyes, studying the stars speckled throughout their E/C-colored vastness. As the two of us leaned in to kiss, a knock on the door rang out.
"Hey, you alright, Shiro? You missed breakfast," Keith paused, seemingly thinking as
Y/N and I frantically got dressed, "and have you seen my sister anywhere? After what happened, I don't want her on her own." We finished getting dressed quickly, and I ran to the door, motioning for Y/N to come with me before I opened it.
"Hey Keith, sorry about that. Y/N slept with me last night since I also don't trust her not to hurt herself." I pulled the younger Kogane in front of me, showing that she was perfectly fine. Keith studied the two of us for a while with a scrutinizing expression on his face before zoning in on Y/N's neck, where several dark red and purple hickeys made themselves obvious. His grey-violet eyes widened and he growled at me, picking up his sister and glared at me, hate and betrayal filling his piercing gaze.
"Yeah, she did sleep with you last night, didn't she? Though, the two of you seem to have done a bit more than that. Stay away from my sister, I don't want her getting hurt," my friend and brother paused, turning his head slightly my direction, "and after Adam, it seems like all you do is hurt people." Keith walked away, carrying a squirming Y/N on his hip like a koala as she began to cry silently, staring at me with longing in her beautiful, starry eyes.
I leant on a wall, sliding down and sitting on the floor as tears began escaping my eyes. Keith is right, all I do is hurt people. I practically forced her into having sex with me, and I didn't even use protection. She might get pregnant, and what if she doesn't want kids yet? She's only eighteen, for God's sake! What if she hates me? I never told her about Adam, and she might get the wrong idea and think that I was just trying something and that I'm gay, and not bisexual. Or that she is just a substitute until we get back to Earth. Damn it! I screw everything up!
As I was thinking, I didn't even realize I had begun weeping until Allura came by and knelt down in front of me, wiping away the tears, "Shiro, what's wrong?" I looked up at her, hiccuping.
"I-I..." Allura would never look at me the same if she knew. As I became lost in thought again, the Altean Princess's face looked at me reassuringly. "I had sex with Y/N, and I didn't even give her a chance to say no if she didn't want to, and we didn't use protection! What if she get's pregnant but she doesn't want the kid? Or what if she hates me for it, or decides to leave me because I wouldn't be a good father? Keith hates me for this already, and what if he tells the others and they begin to hate me, too? I can't handle that, and then what if the Black Lion won't let me in because I've made myself unworthy or something? What if-" The dark-skinned female crashes her lips into mine, cutting me off. To my despair, I begin to kiss back.
When she breaks the kiss, I realize what just happened, and begin to panic, "Shut up, Shiro. You are amazing, and if Y/N can't see that, then I'll show you just how perfect you are." As she leans in for another, I push her away.
"Regardless of what Keith or Y/N think of me right now, she is my girlfriend and I will remain loya-" She pulls me into my room and undresses me. Lord, show me how to say no to this. As she slowly and seductively removes her dress and begins sucking on my hardened member, I moan and give in, forgetting all about my beautiful girlfriend in the other room.
When Allura and I finish, we get dressed and she pulls out a container of concealer, covering up the hickeys on her neck before handing it to me, "Actually, those will pass off as being from Y/N, so there's no need for this." She puts it away and I remember Y/N. What she doesn't know won't kill her, I suppose.
We enter the main room, where Y/N is latched onto Pidge, and Lance and Hunk are keeping Keith away from her, "What in the world is going on in here?" I begin asking questions immediately, my voice making the H/C-haired beauty holding onto Pidge look up, and I see her eyes. They look red and puffy, with stains rolling down her cheeks. She immediately gets up and rushes to me, hugging me tightly as a wave of guilt runs through me.
