a kiss on the wrist

Chapter 21- why do i love you?

ROBINS POV

i could hear every word niall said, i was awake but i didn't want to see him. I was so hurt and mad. Hw could he, how could harry and zayn do this? But niall. That hurt me the most and i hated him, i hated him so much.

I opened my eyes and kassie shot up.

"Robin your awake," she cried, hugging me. The door burst open and harry and zayn both ran in. They stopped at the end of my bed. From behind them i could see niall. He was standing in the doorway. He looked at me. I sat up and looked up at niall, no one else noticing him but me.

Tears streamed down his face, his hand running through his hair. His eyes were still met with mine. In is moment all the hate and anger i had towards him disappeared. I dont know why but it did. But he did this to me, him and his friends did this to me.

He finally wiped the tears and took a deep breath and looking down. He looked up at me one more time, mouthing an "i love you" and walking away.

I let a tear fall down my cheek, running down and dropping onto someone's hand.

"Robin how are you feeling?" Kassie asked. "Like shit," i replied honestly. "Robin," harry started. I almost forgot he was here with zayn.

I looked up at them, zayn standing beside him.

"What are you guys doing here?" I asked, my voice cracking a bit.

"I'm sorry robin i am i wa-" i stopped him

"Kassie give us a moment please," i told her.

She left, bumping into zayn on the way out.

"You know what the worst part is?" I asked them clenching my fist.

"Is that i actually believed every single one of you, i was so stupid. I can't believe i feel for it. Oh yeah you did a great job and helping me zayn. Great job," i laughed. Looking up at him.

"Robin know that I'm sorry with every ounce of my heart and i never meant for any of this to happen. But when i met you that was real robin everything i told you was real that was me, i care for you and i love you, and i wanted to help you so bad but louis had his claws in Us so deep. I made a mistake-" zayn cried

"A big one zayn you and harry were my bestfriends, i trusted you!" I yelled, pointing at them.

My heart monitor started beeping after as my heart beat quickened.

"God this medication isn't fucking helping !" I cried, placing my head in my hands.
"You-" i tried to speak but i couldn't get words out my breath felt limited and my heart felt like it was pounding out of my chest, the pain was excruciating. I grabbed my chest as nurses rushed into my room.

Stan and harry were by my side and kassie was pushing through everyone, zayns hand gripped mine and i didn't care if i was mad at him i was in so much pain and i couldn't breath i dont know what was going on.

I closed my eyes as nurses surrounded me and the lights became brighter.

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When i woke up kassie was asleep on the couch and the lights were turned off, i was connected to more cords, and my arms were sore. I lifted my head and grabbed my phone, of course it was dead. I set it back down and noticed an envelope on the table

I opened it.

Dear Robin,

I can never begin to explain to you how sorry i am or how much i hate myself for doing this, but you probably don't care or don't even want to hear it and i don't blame you. I dont know if you could hear me when i talked to you, but I'm going back to Ireland tonight , my flight leaves at 9 am .i can't face you after this, i can't face myself anymore. I'm sorry i let you down, I'm sorry for using you. I want you to know that i care and love you with all my heart, and now I've realized that if i really do love you I'll leave. Because all I've dine is cause trouble for you and i apologize. Robin you're worth so much more than this, please try to get better, i know I'm in no place to ask anything of you, but if you won't do it for me, do it for everyone else. Live robin. Live, love, and forgive. You know that fortune cookie was right you were my new beginning, it's just forgot to mention that i wouldn't be apart of i, that i wouldn't get to share this new beginning. With you. You have given me so much more than i could ever ask for, and you made my life a whole lot better, and i thank you.