Childhood friend (Harrison osterfield x reader)

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I was in my room just playing on my phone. I was starting to get hot so I decided to take off my sweatshirt. The door was closed so I could take it off. I looked at my scars most of them were healing and some were new. I continued to look on Instagram, then the door opened.
HO) hey y/n dinner is-
He looked horrified. My eyes filled up with tears.
Y) haz it's not what you think
HO) oh really?! I came to tell you dinner is ready and all I see is your arms!
I couldn't hold back the tears anymore.
Y) haz please listen to me!
HO) fine!!
He sat on your bed. I told him everything, the tryout, the teasing, when someone told me that everyone would be better off without me, everything. When I was done he had tears in his eyes.
Y) haz?
He didn't say anything he just hugged me.
HO) I'm so sorry y/n.
I sobbed into his chest, he was crying too
Y) please don't tell anyone. Not your parents, not Charlotte, not Tom especially not Tom.
HO) ok just please talk to me when you feel like it. Promise?
Y) I promise
HO) come on we better get downstairs
I smiled. I felt like someone cared about me. I haven't felt this way for a while.

Hazs POV*
N) hey Harrison? Can you please go get y/n and tell her dinner is ready?
HO) sure Nikki
I walk upstairs to y/ns room. Her door was closed so I walked in
HO) hey y/n dinner is-
The first thing I saw were her wrists. They had some many marks on them. I was horrified.
Y) haz it's not what you think
HO) oh really?! I care to tell you dinner is ready and all i see is your arms!
Y/n was crying. I felt bad bad but I needed a explanation.
Y) haz please listen to me!
HO) fine!!
I sat on her bed and she told me everything. At the end I was in tears. Why are people so mean especially to a nice girl like y/n.
Y) haz?
I didn't say anything, I couldn't. Y/n had been through so much. I gave her a hug and started to cry.
HO) I'm so sorry y/n
She started to sob in my chest. I felt so bad.
Y) please don't tell anyone. Not your parents, not Charlotte, not Tom especially not tom.
I told tom everything. But I can keep a secret.
HO) ok just talk to me when you feel like it. Promise?
Y) I promise
I really cared about y/n.
HO) come on we better get downstairs
Then I saw y/n smile. I had a warm feeling inside. I never felt this way around her before.

At dinner we all talked. Luckily no noticed that me and haz cried. After dinner haz went home and I went to bed. I started to have a dream. It was Harrison, he was saying I'm not worth anything, nobody cares about me. Then he had a piece of glass in his hand, he started to cut himself. He kept doing it until there where thousands of marks on his arms. Then he said "this is what you did to me, i hate you!!" Then I woke up with tears streaming down my face. I looked at the time, it was 3 in the morning. There was no way I'm going back to sleep after that. I really need someone to talk to so I called Haz. He picked up after the second ring.
H) hello?
Y) hey I'm sorry to wake you up
H) no you didn't wake me up. why did you call me?
Y) can you come over please
H) yeah I will be over in 5 minutes
Y) thanks haz see you soon bye
H) bye y/n
I waited for 5 minutes and then I heard a knock on the door.

Hazs POV*
I went to bed and I had a dream.
I saw y/n, she had a knife in her hand. Then she started to cut herself. I ran as fast as I could to her but it was like I was walking. When I finally got to her she asked me " why didn't you stop me?" Then she slit her throat. I woke up in a cold sweat. It was 2:30, I just stayed up and played on my phone. Then y/n started to call me. I guess she wanted me to come over. I got ready and knocked on her door.
She opened the door she had tears in her eyes. She ran into my chest and sobbed like yesterday.
H) y/n your ok. It's just me
Y) thank you
I hugged her tighter.
Y) your probably wondering why I called you
H) just a little bit
She laughed. Gosh I loved her laugh. We went upstairs and we at her bed.
H) so what's wrong?
Y) well I dreamt about you. You told me I'm not worth anything and that nobody cares about me.
Her voice was cracking
Y) you had a piece of glass in your hands. You started to cut yourself and you only stopped after you had thousands of marks on your arms. Then you said this is what you did to me, I hate you!! I woke up after that.
H) y/n I would never say that to you
Y) I know it just felt real
Her eyes welled up with tears. I hugged her again. I might as well tell her my dream.

Your POV*
Haz hugged me. I felt so safe in his arms.
H) y/n I have to tell you something to
Y) what is it?
H) well I had a dream about you. You had a knife in your hand and you started to cut yourself. I tried to run as fast as I could but It was like I was walking. By the time I got to you, you had already had so many cuts on yourself. And you said something to me, you said why didn't you stop me? Then you killed yourself.
I was speechless. Haz has a worse dream then me.
Y) I'm sorry haz
H) it's ok it was just a dream.
I hugged him
Y) can you sleep here?
H) of course
Y) thanks
Haz made a bed on the ground.
Y) haz you don't have to sleep on the floor.
H) where else am I supposed to sleep?
Y) you can sleep with me in my bed
H) are you sure?
Y) yes
He climbed in bed.
Y) good night haz
H) good night y/nn