I Guess I'm Gay -Creek South Park fanfiction

Life Choices

Third update this week! I really feel the need to point out that Tweek hasn't forgiven Craig completely yet  and he does want to give it another go after the whole thing calms down. Also, thank you guys (again) for all the votes/lovely comments. It really means a lot to me.

Enjoy!

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Tweek's Pov :

Maybe I still have feelings for him, but it's hard to over look everything he's done to me just because I'm still in love with him.  I don't think I'm ready to forgive him yet. I really hope we can get this to work out but at the moment I don't really trust him.

And I don't think I will for a while.

"Craig?" I called, still stuck in this broom cupboard with him "Do you mind if I have some time alone to think this one out?"

The question didn't seem to take him by suprise, as he shook his head and unlocked the small door that lead to the living room.
Feeling a bit like Harry Potter,  I stepped out with more confidence than I should have. Surely enough,the party was still on-going and everyone seemed to be having a great time.

I didn't look back to see if Craig remained inside the cupboard or if he came out to at least eat something. He definately came out to me just ten minutes ago, which was enough of a shock without the extra kiss. I find myself pushing through the endless crowds of people and end up resting on a chair near the buffet and even though I'm famished with hunger, I can't bare the thought of eating. I'm trying to get my head cleared up but there's music blasting in my ears from every single angle of the room. I'm not sober and I don't intend to be until tomorrow morning so I quickly get myself another beer bottle before chug it down.

"How's it going?" Kenny patted my shoulder, his hood was down and he was no doubt drunk, but somehow manged to speak without slurs. He did have a lot of practice if you consider the last couple of days.

"Bad." I stated, taking another big sip from my bottle, with Kenny sitting down in one of the red velvet chairs next to me "Or good. I really don't know the difference by now."

"Something happen with you and Craig?" He persuaded and I shrugged, I don't feel like denying anything anymore.

"In a way I suppose." I responded before I gave a heavy sigh "He kissed me."

Kenny raised an eyebrow "Isn't he straight?" Clearly, he knew the answer but I must have looked seriously distressed for him to search for details.

"I thought he was , until about 20 minutes ago." I stared at the ground for a bit, my eyes starting to sting since I stopped blinking "I don't know what to do."

"Well, what do you think you should do?" He enquired and I'm still mesmerised at the fact he sounds sober , although he must have consumed 12 beers by now.

"Have a little time to myself. " I took a deep breath "I need to figure this out."

"Then that's that." Kenny smiled and took a sip of his own bottle "Stop talking to him for a while. Then in a week's or so time you'll have the final decision. Keep him or leave him."

"You're right . He's been trying to make up for his shitty behavior but I need to know this is for real." I quietly convinced myself "Thanks Ken."  When I turned around to thank him,  he was gone and talking with Butters a few metres away. Who knows, maybe they'll profess their love to each other today. Parties do seem to do the trick in that regard.

Finishing my  beer, I stood up and walked towards the back yard, desperate to get some time alone and some fresh air. The yard was empty since most people smoking passed out on the freshly cut grass. I slumped into a chair that was randomly left in the middle of the garden by some guy who was smoking weed when we first arrived.
I gazed at the sky above, millions of stars splattered everywhere , but the moon was nowhere to be found. Kenny is right of course. I can't rush into this, one small and irrational mistake and my life might as well be thrown out the window,like that time Clyde tried doing a back flip through Token's window at a party last year.

If I lay low for a while, I might be able to make the right decision but I will be inspecting Craig's behavior closely for the next week. He's a good person, but he was just raised to be an asshole. Then it hit me. Craig's parents , how would they react to this? Mine wouldn't really care as long as I help them out at their coffee shop but Craig's?   I wonder is he's going to tell them. And if we do end up together (and it seems it's up to me now) how are they going to react?  I don't want to get him in trouble but it might be inevitable.

This is so fucking stressful I can't think straight. Maybe because I'm not straight and my life seems to be going in circles. A loop might I add . Craig might be trustworthy but I don't know that yet .I wonder what he's feeling right now. A small smile crept up on my face, no matter what happens I still end up thinking about him in these situations.

I tried forgetting him but I couldn't because that arrogant prick made his way in my brain and I can't kick him out. I even slept with other guys, one night stands seemed to relieve me of some stress but my mind was on him still. It made me mad, that I couldn't get over him. I was angry at everybody for a while, myself included, in my eyes they were all to blame. But of course, they weren't actually.

And them here he comes to kiss me in a broom cupboard at Bebe's party, he left me with nothing to work on but how this will affect my life.  As I look into the night's sky, I observe very star and think to myself that they must know the answer. They were here before anyone and more wise than everyone on this planet combined.
My peaceful thoughts were interrupted by screams and thumps from inside the house. I couldn't exactly see what was happening from outside, since I was a fair distance away  from it. My legs acted on their own and I stood up following the noises inside. Entering the warm house, most of the cold left my body as I peeked over the crowd. I can't say it was easy if you notice I'm one of the smallest people there but I soon give up, take a chair and climb on it, looking over everyone else.

In the middle of the crowd, Clyde and Craig were face to face with Kevin Stoley.

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What a dry ass chapter. Sorry about that but I knew I had to make Tweek question Craig's actions.

Anyway bye you lot😋