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Joe's pov**
Today's the day!
I finally get to take Cas on our first date! You could say I was nervous. But that would be an understatement. I was beyond nervous..
I know what your thinking.. Its just a date with Caspar you've known each other for a while now. But this date could determine whether Cas and I would work out.
What if this is just a phase for one of us?
What if he doesn't really love me, but just thinks he does?
What if I say something and he decides he doesn't want to be with me?
What if I told Caspar what I've been wanting so badly to tell him? How would he react?
I have so many 'What ifs' running through my head right now.. But it's a little late to back out. I told him to meet me at the park at 7:00. It's currently 6:45. I have like 15 minutes. I can't just say 'Oh yeah I decided I was to scared to go on a date with you. So I'm going to have to cancel, Sorry!' He would be really upset.
He was out all day with Marcus filming and stuff so he would be heading to the park from Marcus'.
I drummed my fingers on the counter.
I pulled me phone out again to look what time it was. 6:50. I have ten minutes.. If I leave now I can get there at 7. But being me I procrastinated.
Suddenly I felt the need to wash the dishes from 2 hours ago, It was just a few plates. When I was done I checked the time, 6:56. I had four minutes! Why did I do that?!
I grabbed a jumper, my house key, my wallet, and my phone. Then ran out of the house.
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When I arrived at the park it was 7:06. Great way to start our first date.. Six minutes late..
When I approached Caspar he looked bored, irritated, and upset.
"Hey Cas.." I sighed.
"Where have you been?! You said to meet you here at 7! I guess you just couldn't be bothered to show up on time to your date! Yeah, Your date! YOURS JOSEPH! YOU PLANNED THIS! NOT ME!"
He's causing a scene.. People are looking at us..
"Cas, please.. People are staring.."
"I DON'T FREAKING CARE JOE! LET THEM STARE!!"
"Cas, your being unreasonable.. I was cleaning up the house."
He breathed in. Okay, good. He's calming down.
"I don't care what you were doing Joe. You should have been here, not stalling. If you don't want to be in a relationship with me then just say so." He said in an ice cold tone. It gave me shivers, I've never heard his voice so emotionless, yet with so much emotion. It kind of scared me to be honest..
"O- of course I want to be in a relationship with you Cas! If I didn't I wouldn't have stalled!"
"You were stalling! How is that showing you want to be in a relationship with me!"
"Cas, I was stalling because I was nervous about messing this date up! I want us- No need us to work! I really like you Cas! I really really truly do like you!"
"Well, look how it worked out.." He said monotone. He stood up and walked away.
"Cas!"
"Caspar!"
"Caspar where are you going?!"
He finally turn around. Looked at all the people watching us, then quickly marched over.
"Joe, I love you, I really do. But I'm done. If this is how you show you 'like' someone, then I don't want to be that someone.. I need a break from you- From us. I'll see you in a week.."
And with that he walked off.
I fell to the ground balling my eyes out. After about 15 minutes of crying I was just whimpering. I know it's very weak of me, but he just left me. I was planning on telling him something really important tonight. Something that would change our relationship for the better.
I took out my phone and looked at the time. 8:30. I guess we fought for quite a while.. I unlocked my phone to be met with my screen saver. It was Caspar. He was smiling really big you almost couldn't see his eyes anymore. It was really cute.
Cute..
Caspar called me cute the night I asked him on this terrible date..
I need to stop.
I need to give him space. But what if I give him to much space? Will he think I don't care? I better call him, just to prove I do care.
Just the response I expected. He didn't answer. I called again the ring cut short. Did he answer?
"Hello?" I asked.
No response.
I took my phone away from my eye. He hung up! Well at least I know his phone is on, So he can read my messages.
I quickly sent him a text. It said:
'Caspar, I'm really so sorry for last night! Let me make it up to you, I'll take you out on another date tonight, and I'll show up an hour early so that way you don't have to wait on me. Again I'm truly sorry!! I miss you, Cas. Call me when you get this please. Xxx'
Now, I need to go home, maybe Caspar will be there.
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When I finally arrived home I ran downstairs to check Caspar's room. He wasn't there, It looked exactly as it was before he left this morning. Do he hasn't been home all day. Or at least in his room all day.
Great. Now how am I suppose to see him? I have no idea where he is.
I think I'll just eat away my problems. I decided on a sandwich. I grabbed some bread, mayonnaise, lettuce, tomato, cheese, and turkey. After I got all that out I grabbed a paper towel and laid out my bread, then I remembered a knife. I quickly opened the draw and plunged my hand in there, no really thinking about how sharp the knife were.
"Oww! Ow! Ow! Ow! Ow!" I cried in pain. Quickly ripping my hand out of the draw, and rinsing the blood off.
How did Caspar ever cut hisself? The pain was worse then he emotional pain I was having. Never mind the sandwich. I wasn't in the mood for eating anymore. I put the stuff back up and went downstairs to my room, and collapsed in the bed.
What a long day..
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I finally updated!! Its been like 3-4 days since the last update I think?
Anyways, what do you think Joe wanted to tell Caspar that would make their relationship 'better'?
Why do you think Caspar got so mad at Joe for showing up late?
Do you want this chapter in Caspar's Pov?
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Anything you guys want I will try to include, such as:
Characters, Something you want to happen, etc.
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