Have you ever wonder why they broke your hearts to a milions pieces and they never feel anything while you felt everything? You've done your best, showed your effort and give all out but still they still left you?
Give you an ache that hurt so bad that make your tears fall unnoticeably, the pain is deep inside that you felt externally and internally, that ruin your mood for a whole day, the memories with her/him running, circling inside your mind, the hardship you have done for them felt worthless, all the time and love you give meant nothing to them, i could write all day long describing the pain is, but maybe in the other post i will write a post specificly about it,
Continue..
How they can be so cruel and heartless? You check yourself what u have done wrong? You blame your self, you felt this so much anger within you that you feel you wanna explode, the harder you try to force yourself to forget but the only thing you received is more suffering,
Thats reality's, the one who left will never felt the same as you are, if they felt the same, maybe you wouldnt agree what I've wrote just now right?
But.. think again, what if, this is all just a payback to us? God works in a mysterious way, try open your life chapter and read again, have you ever inflicted the same thing to someone? That time, you never felt anything when you left while he/she feel everything that u felt right now?
If you do have, maybe you deserve all of this, you embrace the pain because of what you have done, you stabbed people and someone else's stab you back for them? Fair is it?
"But i only did it once but why i been punish multiple times?"
Take it like this, you once donate a dollar for someone that really needed it, and in the end of the day, somehow you get double or quadraple the money you have donated from some unexpected resources, thats how life works sometimes,
"No, you are wrong, this is the first time I've been in love with someone, i never hurt anyone in my past time"
Haha, how naive, means you're still young or just immature, first love that make it till the end is super rare, its not impossible but it is one in a thousands, first love hurt the most but in the same time moving on from it is easier than your next relationship, trust me, its a new thing for you, new to your life, but somehow you will manage to get through it sooner or later,
Take a mirror, look at yourself, look deeply through that ego, is it their fault or yours? Lying to yourself just to make you felt less guilty is shameful things to do, you never escape from the sense of guilt, be honest, accept the fact that you once an antagonist in someone life, living in a denial is just sad,
"They deserve it" yes, maybe they deserve it, maybe they make you leave them, maybe its not your fault that make you leave them, its their fault, sometimes we choose wrong people to fall in love with, if they cheated on you, hit you, used you and other things that consider worth leaving, then you have done the right thing, so the betrayal you faced now its not a kifarah or karma, its just one of God plan for you, one day you will understand how He works, will post about this in other post too,
But if it is not, is just some stupid reasons, you just bored, you lost interest towards them, you found someone better, you found that they are unfit for you and you're making some cliche play victim words like " its not you, its me", " you deserve some is better", you know what i mean by
So if its true, Accept the fact that what you have facing right now is a payback from what you have done before, sin to God is different, God is merciful, humans arent, maybe they cried and pray to God for what you have done to them or maybe they pray to give them strength to endure the pain that you have caused, and now, God answered their prayers,
Once in a while, open your mind, stop living in a denial, we all once will become a bad guy in someone life, and maybe the one who shattered your heart now , one day they will face and felt the same way you feel right now, maybe worst, there is always consequence in our actions in this life, But one thing for sure, What you give, You get back
God is Merciful, God is Fair,
Just believe in Him
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