guardian angel

happy birthday to our guardian angel

Happy 21st birthday to our beautiful guardian angel/lil demon X aka Jahseh Onfroy, this story is for you, I love you X.. <3 <\3

hi, i'm Kaitlyn, i'm 17 and i have recently moved from the UK south wales to florida

today is a very special day.. it's my beautiful inspirational caring loving positive idol's birthday aka Jahseh Dwayne Ricardo Onfroy, i'm about to visit his mausoleum in Boca Raton, Palm Beach, it's like half an hour away when walking from where i live, he didn't get the chance to make it to 21 and that is very and truly heartbreaking so it's up to us fans/supporters and his family to celebrate his birthday and spread love and positivity his way and to others and to keep him alive in our hearts and minds, i know he's still with us, he's probably drinking hennessy and getting lit up there too

anyway i'm about to shower now so i can be on my way to visit X but first i need to blast his music whilst i shower i grabbed my phone and went onto my playlist then i went in the bathroom with my phone and put it on the shelf above the toilet and brushed my teeth then i went into the shower

everybody dies in their nightmares came on, ohhh man i love this song but it hurts my heart well most of his songs break my heart because he's no longer here and whenever i think of what happened to our beautiful positive human being it breaks my heart, he went through so much messed up shit but he becoming so much better so much more positive he was doing good he did that helpinghandchallenge he wanted us fans to do good for the less fortunate too, he was even talking about giving a lucky winner a 1000 dollars and also get to spend a day with him to go out to eat or something, he was going to events, he was giving back, he is such an inspiration, he didn't deserve any of this

but we can't get so upset, he won't want that, we need to be positive, we need to think of it like he's only sipping tea in a different hood and one day we will all be sipping tea in the same hood

"TIRED OF FEELING LIKE I'M TRAPPED IN MY DAMN MIND TIRED OF FEELING LIKE I'M WRAPPED IN A DAMN LIE TIRED OF FEELING LIKE MY LIFE IS A DAMN GAME NIGGA REALLY WANNA DIE IN THE NIGHTTIME!" i screamed the song whilst in the shower crying whilst washing my hair

after about 20 minutes of washing shaving and screaming lyrics i got out of the shower

i dryed my body then i put coconut oil all over my body when i was done i grabbed my phone off the shelf and went into my bedroom

i put my phone on my bed and went over to my wardrobe to find something to wear, it's kinda cold so i chose to wear a black pair of jeans and a long sleeve black top then i got my revenge hoodie i love my revenge hoodie when i finished getting dressed i dryed my hair

now i'm about to do my makeup, i got my foundation and my light and dark browns and nude lip paint and highlighter out as i was doing my makeup fuck love started playing you know what that means..

"PLEASE DON'T THROW YOUR LOVEEEE AWAY YEAH YEAH I'M NAUSEOUS I'M DYING SHE RIPPED MY HEART RIGHT OUT CAN'T FIND HER SOMEONE TO MY EYES ARE ALLLL CRIED OUT LOST IT RIOTS GUNFIRE INSIDE MY HEAD I'VE LOST IT RIOTS GUNFIRE INSIDE MY HEAD!"

i screamed the words getting in my feelings whilst doing my makeup, I love this song so much, I fr don't think he has any not good songs, they're all prefect

after about 20 minutes of screaming lyrics and doing my makeup, i finally finished

i put on my small choker and grabbed my phone to turn off the music to put it in my backpack that also got 10 real red roses and a black plastic rose in it and a small stitch teddy from lilo and stitch also for him, he had a big stitch teddy before and hennessy because i'm about to celebrate X's birthday with him i'm gonna cry and ruin my bomb makeup..