Skin is itching, head burning, lungs begging for air. The floor is as cold as ice and it feels like my body keeps sinking and further and further into the floor. My legs twitched to push them together. But there was a force making them do otherwise. What am I even doing here? Where am I in that matter? I roll my face to hide it from the shadow between my knees and feel my wet and hot cheeks burn against the floor. I turn over to move more but am jerked to sit up more and the pain strikes me. I scream at the top of my lungs but that gets me no where and I begin to see black again as my body goes numb. Why is this happening to me? Before my lights went out I softly whisper to the shadow "I'm sorry" then everything stops and my lights go out as the last tear travels down my broken face.
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"Tonight is going to be the biggest party of the school year! You have to come Maddi!" I turn around to see my best friend Ashlynn coming up to my shoulder. She has been begging me to go to a high school party ever since we missed one from last year where almost half the girls in the school lost there virginity. I wasn't completely into that. But I did wanna have fun for my second year of high school. It seems like all the Juniors are going after the freshmen so I'm keeping an eye for a senior. Well. I've already found that Iv'e been talking too for a couple months during the summer. His name is Logan. I smile just thinking of his name. Ash elbows me in the arm and almost shouts "You were thinking of him weren't you" I shoot her a glare and whisper back "can you be any louder" She laughs her lovely laugh and says "maybe" and we contuine to walk down the campus to get to the bottom of the hill. That's where we all tend to go at lunch to smoke a pack because of all the stress we get from our morning classes. Ha. I'm surprised we don't see any of the teachers down here with us. As we walk down the steps I hear screaming and yelling and look up to see one of the biggest stoners of the school spitting at the principle and yelling "Fuck you" to him. We stop walking as everyone else down here freezes in their tracks and stares at the principle. His face is bright red and his hands are shaking in anger. He doesn't do anything. He just stands there and stares at Josh.(the stoner af course) In a distance I can hear sirens. Well shit, whatever Josh did this time, he's in for it now. As the cops pull up, someone from behind me pulls my backpack off of me, spinning me around on my heels. I turn to swing at them but stop as I realize who it was. Jaseson. Jaseson has been my best friend since I was 11. He's already graduated high school but he comes and visits on our lunch which is his lunch. Even though he's not suppose to be on campus, they don't care cause he's not a threat. He graduated 2 years ago but still wastes his free time coming back to high school to see his best friend. Me. I smile at him and punch him slightly in the arm and grab my bag. Ash leans in and whispers in my ear "why aren't you guys dating yet". I pull away and roll my eyes as I go back to Jaseson. "ASH" I hear someone call from down the hill. It was her boyfriend Luke. He was quit a badass if you ask me. But he was also one of my close friends. Ash winks at me before running down the hill into his arms as she greets him with a kiss on the lips. I look down at my feet and smile. I wish I had someone to share that with I thought. Jaseson taps me on the shoulder and brings me back into reality. I do this a lot, zone out, so he knows that yelling at me doesn't help. I reach into my bag and pull out two cigs and pass one to Jaseson as he pulls out his lighter. You would think since he's older that he would have the cigs. But he doesn't. His parents are still strict and he still lives them. But secrectly him and I have been looking for a place of his own for awhile. We found one about 7 blocks away from me that he might rent. Lets hope so since he is going to college in town thank God. We reach the bottom of the hill and stand with everyone else to watch Josh get into the cops car and drive off down the street. " So much for my weed" someone in the crowd says and Jaseson and I quietly laugh as we head to get out of the group. We start walking and someone yanks at my arm pulling me back and taking my cig out of my hand and steps on it. "What the fuck dude!" I yell. Then look up to see who it was. As usual, the person is about a foot taller then me so I back up a little only to get pulled in by the gross, tall person. "Hey man let her go, we don't want any trouble today" I hear Jaseson say. "But she smells so good. I've gotta have a taste" the creep says. Jaseson takes a step him while hes holding me and he makes his grip tighter around me. "Come on man" Jaseson says and wraps his hands around the guy's arm around me. They stare at each other and I can hear the guy's breathe he quicker and before I realize it, I'm being grabbed Jaseson as we bolt down the street away from them. "What the fuck just happened?!" I ask nearly yelled at him. "I just punched a senior in the face!" He says throughout his laughs. We both walk through the endless amount of parking lots laughing and smoking unntil we get to his car. "Exactly why don't you just drive this to the high school to pick me up?" "So people like him, don't trace me down and find me and beat the shit out of me" I laugh as he starts the car and speeds down the streets. I rest my head against the window and think about what Ash said. "why aren't you guys dating yet" Well one of the bggest reasons is because he's 19 and I'm 15. He could go to jail. Two. He doesn't like me or have feelings for me. At Least I don't think so.. Oh well. It doesn't matter. He's probably seeing some college girl just like I'm talking to Logan. Although Logan is turning 18 in 8 months. Even though we are sitting in silence, its not an awkward silence, we have music playing that we both love. So we're in our own worlds but still in the same world with the music. We pull to the bottom of the hill and I go to pull the door open but Jaseson reaches over and stops me. "Let me get out first and walk you to class" and he nods his head over towards the guy that grabbed me. As a get a better look at his face, I see that its David. He's kind of a fuck up in life, and a creep. Jaseson comes and opens my door and as I get out, he puts his hand on the small of my back and walks me. My heart flutters a little and I look up at him. He's like 5 inches taller then me so I can see his jawline just fine. His hazel eyes are wondering, looking around everywhere as we walk up the stairs together. He turns his head to look at the side and I dart my head to look down. I can tell I'm blushing so I look to the side and watch the kids slowly get to their classes. As we appoach the building he removes his hand and I feel my shoudlers go lump. What the fuck? " I can walk the rest of the way by myself, thank you" I turn and say to him. He looks at me confused then nods "Okay bye" He steps towards me and I freeze as I see Logan walking towards me and Jaseson stops and sees what I'm seeing and turns to wave at me shyly and leaves. What the actual fuck just happened? "Hey who was that?" Logan asks me as he approaches me. "Jaseson, my best friend" I tell him and watch Jaseson walk and turn around the corner to leave. "Well then, we better get the class now" he says. "yeah" I say as I'm still staring at the door. I shake my head a little then turn to walk to my class but stop one more time to look at the door. What was all of that?
