The Weight (a Shawn Mendes fan-fiction)

Chapter 22

Teagans POV

10 days later...

My body hasn't left the bed for days. Every time someone mentions his name I burst to tears. Twitter has made my life a wreck. The constant reminder that I made a huge mistake hits me anytime I get the courage to get out of bed. I look gross. My hair sits in an unwashed messy bun and my body lays in one of Shawn's old t-shirts he had left.

My dad brings me food when he finally gets the hint that I'm not leaving my bedrooms boundaries. He's so supportive when I'm down. It makes me wonder why him and my mother got divorced in the first place.

"It just wasn't working." My mom had said when I asked at the age of 10. I don't believe it, I guarantee that's a line of bullshit.

"Teagan." My dad startles me out of my own mind and gives me a concerned expression. He changes his gaze to face my untouched bowl.

"Oh." Is all I can say.

He just sighs and walks to give me a kiss on the forehead.

I decide against eating and push the food to the end of my nightstand. I exchange the fork for the tv remote and curl into a ball on my bed.

The MTV show Awkward appears on the screen and I feel comforted that I'm not the only one with a huge mistake.

This is scripted, Teagan. Dumbass...

The move to commercial break which usually consists condom commercials. I grab my phone and scroll through my Facebook to see what my friends in America have been up to.

"Hi I'm Shawn Mendes tuning in with MTV to tell you guys about my latest singles release tonight at my concert which will be aired here on MTV."

My jaw hits the floor when I hear his angelic voice. What??? Concert tonight??? The time flashes on the screen. 7 o'clock, that's 10 minutes from now.

Ok ok... I can do this. I can watch him perform and not cry. I'll be good I'll be good...

By the first 20 seconds I'm full on balling. Babe... No....

"Hey guys! Are you ready to hear my new single?" The crowd roars with cheers and applause.

"I wanna go back, forget that it's over. Paint it in black, when you left me alone. I never knew that she was sleeping next door with the kid I grew up with & I can't go back to her anymore. No more."

Wait what? What the actual fuck... I can't control my anger anymore and immediately grab my phone.

Text message to Shawn and Caleb: This stops now. I can't take this anymore. I'm in more pain than either of you know. I'm nearly to point of not wanting to live anymore. This is too much. So unless you guys want to stop me, bye. I love you guys. Forever and always Shawn.

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