~Broken Thoughts and Crazy Fantasies~

The beginning of hurt.

Your hair, the way it outlines your beautiful yet fierce face. Your eyes, the way they glisten. Yet I can see the darkness deep beneath. They are still so beautiful. Your nose, adorable in shape. And your lips. The top, so beautiful and sharp. And my favorite.. your dimples. You smile and the whole room lights up. It's absolutely amazing. The way your dimples outline your mouth. Happy looks so good on you. Flawless in every single way. Have you ever looked at someone and your heart aches? In a good way, like you've never laid eyes on something so beautiful. So incredibly strong. Every time I look at you my heart gets so warm. My anxiety- like a small paddle boat on the ocean top. A storm surrounding it. Waves crashing repeatedly into the side of the boat. You calm that. My life becomes content. And this is where I feel I should be. Why can't I turn my mind off? Why can't I stop? I don't want to fall for you. You're my bestfriend. But for some reason all I want to do is make you realize your worth. I want you to be able to look into the mirror and be as amazed as I am.