Not Just a Friend (A Harry Styles fanfic)

8: Loneliness

Chapter 8: Loneliness

 

(Harry’s P.O.V)

 

It’s been a week since i have last seen Star and it’s a bit weird without her. I know what most of you are probably thinking; how cliché to say that i can’t live without her. I can live without her because I have spent all my nineteen years of life without Star Johnson and I am fine. It’s just that I found myself attached to her and i enjoyed her company that i feel so lonely. I have my four best lads to keep me company but somehow that is not enough.

I tried calling her numerous times but alway decided against it because i didn’t want her to think that i was this psycho dude that couldn’t live without her and was obsessed with her or anything. I was sitting on the couch of my flat debating whether or not to call her.

I was staring at her number for about half an hour... “Should I call her?” I asked myself. All i could think of were the negatives resulting in me calling or texting her.

1: What if she didn’t respond

2: What if she thought i was a psycho who was obsessed with her or something? After that she would never speak to me again, much less for calling or texting me.

3: What if she just embarrassed me for calling her? She was probably angry for some reason but I didn't know the reason why. If she did cuss me out or yell at me, then i'd get the message and just leave her alone.

4: What if she was busy? Now that I could understand, but she may never have the time to call back considering that she would be busy.

5: What if she thought i was pestering her?

All the negativity had my head pounding, so i decided to send her one simple text.

“Hey cupcake ;)”

I stared at my phone intently for about two minutes wondering if she would reply. You are probably thinking that I am in fact psycho but i promise i’m not. I just wanted to talk to her. The buzzing of my Iphone had my head snapping towards the screen and it was in fact Star, and i smiled to myself in satisfaction.

“Ayyoo Styles.. Missing me already? ;) and stop calling me cupcake!” –Star

I was now grinning from ear to ear at her response. Although she always asked ever so nicely for me to stop calling her cupcake, something just told me she enjoyed it.

“You know you like it, CUPCAKE”

“Ughhh... You’re so frustrating.” –Star

“But you love it tho XD”

We continued texting each other for about a whole two hours. What were you talking about you may ask? Well it was about the most random shit.

She told me about how she was a unicorn in disguise pretending to be a mermaid, to which i laughed. She was so weird and i loved that about her.

We chatted about the weather, and she told me about her week. Apparently she met this guy Matthew or whatever his name was and she had to tutor him. When she told me about him i felt a pang of jealously for what i don’t know.

Her week was mostly spent tutoring him and she met a girl called Andrea, and they became friends. I was so happy that she met a friend. I knew she was a bit lonely though.

When she said she had to leave it made me a bit sad but she did have to leave at some point.

“Sorry but i have to go. I have to meet up with Matthias in a few minutes. Talk later?” –Star