Holding on (Andy Biersack)

Not my Plans

(Jade's P.O.V)

But dad do I really don't want to go..why does he take us with him every where he goes?

"Come on Jade,I really want to see Calum again!My sister Cat was really obsessed with her boyfriend.

Please?Both of them looked at me with these puppy dog eyes...

"Urg..fine but Kathy is coming with us!"

"Okay.."dad replied.Then he and Cat started jumping around in my room."Just go out and Dance somewhere else you guys are embarrassing. Dance in the kitchen or in Cats room!"

So they went out dancing and to judge by my mums laugh they had gone down to the kitchen to dance.Well this is my wonderful and really extraordinary family.

I started packing my bags because we probably were going to leave really soon.I looked at my right wrist where you could still she some faded Marks,just a reminder of my not so nice past.And just to think that I would be dead if this strange boy hadn't found me and then I would have had these sad and happy memories of now.And really even though I was really depressed and frustrated but I still sent a silent prayer to that boy who saved my life those almost 4 years ago.But then to think of dean really hurt me so these scars were a blessing and a burden I guess.

My thoughts were interrupted by my phone ringtone.

'In the end as we fade into the night who will tell the story of your life and who will remember your last goodbye...'

*Phone convo*

Kathy"Hey Jade..now why did you fucking tell your dad that I'm coming along to wherever you guys are going for the summer!"

Jade"First of all were going to warped tour, Cause dad has to do some managing stuff thingy there and second of all I'm not going to let you spend the summer with my mum!"

Kathy" Oh my god!You're going to warped?And you're mum loves punk rock music and my mum doesn't, how not to spend time with her?"

Jade"No 'we' are going to warped!And I know that your mum doesn't listen to good music but that doesn't mean you talk to my mum about music!"

Kathy"Okay I'm coming with you guys!and Its not my fault that your mum likes me!"

Jade"Urg...fine!So now go pack we're probably leaving in two or three days!Bye"

Kathy"Okay bye!"

*End of confusing phone convo*

Then I continued to pack my bags for some time till I saw that Picture of dean and me...I didn't even notice the tears flowing down my cheeks so when my wrists started itching I went down to the livingroom.The last time I had cut was after Dean....my thoughts were interrupted by those voices in the kitchen.

"But mum just imagine if jade finds a boy there who isn't scared of her...I mean did you see the guys at school when she used to get angry.they literally pissed in their pants..."These, hey they were talking about my life how dare they....

"Mum tell her something she can't just say things like that..they aren't even true!"my mum smiled as my sis who flinched and dropped the spoon she was holding in her hand.yep thats my mum for you and on top of that she likes punk rock music... she laughs at everything we do but she's a sweetheart at the same time.

"I told her to stop but you know how she is.."after saying that mum ran out of the kitchen...

"Cat stop talking that kinda shit to mum we don't want her old heart to fail"

"Hey I heard that and my heart isn't old I'm 39and you guys are 19 that's  just 20years older than you guys!"

Cat started laughing while running away from me....she's going to regret it!we all started running around the house and Our dogs Cats dog 'Coco' and my dog 'Angel' joined us.

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A.Nokay so as you can see I changed some things hers and I hope you like this version better.So now I'll update Inspiring Quotes so check that out and until then stay beautiful my little band fans!

                              Monaxx