Did he think of me?
The reality is I don't care anymore
I put my phone away and I'm not waiting for him to answer,not anymore.
How did the day start? The same as yesterday...cat/sister/babysitting.
prr-meow-juice
prr-meow-juice
prr-meow-juice
prr-meow-juice
prr-meow-juicejuicejuicejuice.
My sister will evaporate,I am serious.
Mrs.mom and mrs.aunt are waiting in the living room so we can watch a movie.Drama.(like my life isn't a drama already.). We lay down,sister crying,and watch the movie.Romance/Drama/adventure/mystery.What a mix...But it sure made me cry.Popcorn on my lap and I'm eating so fast I will throw up very soon,My belly is huge from over eating.
-Mia?where's the cat? - says mrs.mom curious as can be.
-How am I supposed to know? - I say,not curious at all.
Since mr.uncle got a cat,she lives here.Not because she doesn't have a home,but because her home is empty,mr.uncle works 23 hours a day (maybe I'm exaggerating but he works alot) and has no interest in taking care of that cat.
When I was a real girl,I had 23 dogs,It may seem alot to you but they were all happy,we had a large house and a yard,they would run all day around me and I was their princess.
They all died.
Mommy said they would stay with me to infinity and beyond.So when they died I told myself "infinity" is not real.It can't be.
I eventually got up and looked around for that cat,she is the size of my hand and fits every-where.
Under the couch.
-Found you! - I say louder than I should,with her in my hands.
Animals are part of the family,they are not an "it" they are a she/he.I was educated that way.
*phone vibrating* It's him.
I have things to do,I won't talk to him,I think he doesn't even care.
Let me tell you about him,we promissed we would be together,forever.again,to infinity and beyond.we stayed together for a tiny eternity but now we barely and madly talk.I stayed with my ex for an even smaller eternity.
I guess some infinities are bigger than others.and that's okay.
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It's hot,and I hate summer,not because I started cutting in one summer,nor because I can't wear sweathers and hide the cuts on my wrists/arms.But because of the heat.I have sweat problems.My hands drip sweat and that is not pleasant.I am an ocean in summer,waves splash in my body and hit me harder than they should,I bath in sweat and I feel like a 12 year old going through puberty.
I cringe.
*phone vibrating* I want to be alone.
*phone vibrating* alone.
*phone vibrating* no.
-Mia? give your sister a bath,please. - mrs.mom rarely says please,I am shocked.
-Okay. - I answer.
-Its that really okay? - mrs.mom prettends I have a choice.
-Okay. - I answer.
My sister is 120cm tall.She is 4 years young.Most people say "she seems 7".They told me the same thing when I was her age.It scares me.Because people treated me like I was 21 when I was 12,because I was already 170cm tall.It left me scarred.But I'm here for her and she won't be treated like that by anyone (except me of course).
Done showering.
My "infinity boy" is texting.And I'm not caring
not even a bit
not at all.
Hands sweating,frozen body,mind awake and I,
I'm healing.
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