Holding on (Andy Biersack)

So much to think about

(Andy's P.O.V)

For some reason I couldn't stop thinking about what Jade said.I hated seeing people sad and depressed but she even hated her life because of mistakes she made I didn't know anyone who would openly admitt having made so many mistakes.And then her problems were similar to mine..I was depressed,too.I had totally different reasons for that but they all lead to the same thing.

And it reminded me of this one day in winter like four years ago when I saw a girl trying to kill herself in a street...and she had told me a similar story.It really gave me a lot to think about but sadly we never had contact to each other she didn't even tell me her name I just knew that she had long brown hair similar to Jade's and that she had interesting eyes but I forgot the exact eye colour I always hoped that she didn't kill herself after all.

I had no idea what to do since my band mates had gone out somewhere except Ashley who was in the tourbus with some girls..okay I didn't even want to think about that.So finally I decided to call Jade and hang out with her maybe she would tell me more about her problems...

*Phone Convo*

Andy" Hey Jade"

Jade"Oh my God thanks Andy!You're being my saviour right now!" She screamed..what did I do?

Andy"Um..I just called you so I didn't really do anything"

Jade "Exactly you called I was about to puke my guts out because I am watching Cat and Cal pal suck up each others faces the whole day and Kathy somehow disappeared again!" I heard some footsteps I sounded like she was running and shortly after that I heard a door shut loudly.

Andy"Wow I'm a superhero"I joked laughing

Jade"Really funny Andy...Anyways I don't care if you want it or not I'm coming over to your tour bus now!"

Andy"That's just the reason I called you Jade!"I laughed.

Jade"Oh..well then see ya in like five minutes when I find you!"

Andy"Bye Jade"

*End of phone convo*

So I waited outside for her to come and it really didn't take long till I saw her running up to where I was sitting.

She smiled at me and sat down.."Hi Andy!"

"hey Jade so should we just sit here and talk or should we just go for a walk?"I asked because I really had the urge to stretch my Gazelle legs.

"I think we should go for a walk the weather is so pleasant right now"With that she got up and waited for me.

So we walked for a while when she surprisingly spoke up.."Andy can I have a cigarette,too?"

I choked on mine..she what?I really didn't expect that.."Um..you smoke?"

She looked up at me and frowned"is there a problem with that I mean you smoke,too"

"I just didn't expect that you know its really harm full for the body and how old are you anyways?"she stopped walking and raised an eyebrow dramatically.

" I know that its unhealthy and I smoke cause its better than doing drugs don't you think?and by the way I'm nineteen and I don't look younger than that either"she started smirking slighty.

"Okay...I didn't think about your age I'm sorry and yeah its better than that but still you should stop"

"So why don't you quitt smoking?"

I coughed"Because I don't have any motivation to do that.."I really wanted to change the topic.."So tell me something about yourself Jade"

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A.N another chappie!

And I'm sorry for not updating fast but I was really sick and I had to go to the doctors like three times..so I hope you can understand!This chappie isn't that long either but its just the way it turned out.

And I really hope you like my story so far because I really put a lot of effort in it and I of course enjoy writing it,too so don't get me wrong!

And stay beautiful my little weirdos!

                                 Monaxx