“Secrets & Lies”
http://www.amazon.com/dp/B005G5L36O
“Sometimes a need for keeping secrets…
Can be just as intriguing as reason for telling lies…”
Chapter One
Kenny Jordan rolled off of Camilla Vargas and fell flat on his back beside her with a sigh. The previous excitement within his mind and manhood slowly faded into nothing and he didn’t really care. At least that was what he thought. For a moment, the room was silent except for the slow calming breaths that quietly overcame them. Neither one was fully satisfied but for Kenny it was definitely over. Sitting up on the side of the bed, he pulled the condom from his now flaccid sex and crushed it to his palm. To himself, he wondered how he was going to survive this mess.
“I’m sorry, Cami,” he finally said plainly, tossing the condom in the trash.
“Sorry for what,” she asked sincerely, rubbing his back and then sitting up to lay her head on his shoulder from behind. “You have no reason to be sorry.”
“Do you want to try again?”
“That’s up to you, Kenny,” she said with hesitation. “But I don’t see any need if this is not what you want or are ready to do.”
“You know I want you, don’t you?”
“Yes, I do,” she said with a tiny smile creeping across her face and then faded. “I just want you to be certain that this is what you want before we take this to the next step.”
“How can you be so understanding,” he asked, grabbing her hand and pulling her around to face him. “Don’t you think I’m being just a little bit selfish?”
“Kenny, I really enjoy being with you. I may not understand all the things that make you who you are, but I like you a lot.” She took a quick breath and cupped his face in her hands, staring at him face to face.
“But this isn’t fair to you,” he said pulling away from her and getting to his feet. Ignoring the fact that he was completely naked, he started to pace. Apprehension was slipping over him and the confusion of his emotions was only adding to his distress. “I seriously think you should take this as a sign that you should move on.”
“I’m not going to do that,” she said almost forcefully. “Until you are absolutely sure about this, I’m staying right here.”
“Aw damn, Cami,” he said sadly, dropping to his knees beside the bed and reaching for her hand. “You know I like being with you too, but sometimes that is not enough.”
“Sometimes it is.”
“But if this isn’t right…”
“It’s right enough for me.” Camilla smiled down on him in the near darkness of the room and pressed her lips to the top of his head. “Do you want to talk about it?”
“Do you think talking about it will help? Do you really think it will change anything?”
“Talking about it is what brought me to you.” She carefully caressed his face until she found his lips, kissed him gently, then slowly raised herself to the side of the bed and guided him between her legs. “I’m not concerned about changing anything about you.”
“Then how do you want me so,” he asked still confused, wrapping his arms around her waist. “You know all my secrets.”
“But that’s only a part of it, Kenny. I like you because I have never met a man so open and honest about himself as you have been with me.”
“I never volunteer information, but I never really had any reason to lie.”
“But most men do,” she said, pulling him to her bare breasts and holding him close. “Any woman should be pleased to know such honesty from the men in their lives.”
“They say they do, but the fact is they can’t always handle the real truth.” The sadness of this notion fell over him again as he moved to rest his head on her shoulder with a sigh.
“I’m not like all women, Kenny, and you should know that by now. I know everything I think I deserve to know.”
“Is that going to be enough?”
“When you know you are ready for this to be more, you will have no need to ask that question.”
“So, do you want to try this again,” he asked somewhat slyly, feeling her words and touch breathe new life into his rising desire as he pressed himself firmly between her legs.
“What do you think,” she asked with a smile. In the moment, he still wasn’t sure if he was excited because of her words and actions or if he felt a sudden need to prove himself. Either way, once they started again, this time it was definitely going all the way…
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Story Poem:
“The past is the present for true love will unfold.
Through many generations. Some young. Some old.
With trust and understanding their emotions will bare
The deepest of hidden secrets not intended to share
But then there are two others with a similar mind
Who will do whatever it takes to undo what they find
Through carnal desires, love, success, and dreams of “the one.”
They each will have to answer for the things they have done.
In the end all will come together through unquestionable ties
And the truth will be the undoing of their secrets & lies…
Copyright 2011 by Tracy James Jones
