You tell me to take a picture
point the camera at myself and smile.
You don't understand that I can't.
When you look at the picture you see me,
I see a different person.
I see a failure,
a person with a past.
A person who has fallen in love too many times to count,
a person who has lost her heart.
A person who defines herself through who she likes.
A person who has no self-worth.
A person who writes to feel,
who smiles and laughs.
A person who doesn't like who she is,
or what she looks like.
A person who feels like her dreams are too big,
but dreams in color.
A person who wants many things in life,
but never chases her dreams for fear of getting lost.
A person who lost herself in all the people.
A person who fakes it.
A person nobody notices.
A person who compares herself to others.
This is what I see.
This is why I can't take
a selfie.
