She was having racing thoughts every hour she spent awake. The clouds kept getting darker and bleak, fogging up her mind. She sat in a corner alone isolating herself from the world. She stayed there for what seemed an eternity while she was awake. The girl could not seem to think straight. Their voices engulfed her consciousness, voicing their opinions outloud.
The room dissolved like snow as she found her thoughts out in outer space. Her mind starts to day dream about her perfect life, her perfect year and, her perfect man. The girl loved the people that showered her with affection, but she was scared that she would push them away. She had done the samw with everyone else, besides her mentally deranged aunt.
She got up and looking out the window as it snowed. While her boyfriend was at work she plugged in with her favorite playlist on blast. It was cold she cuddled up by the window with her favorite blanket and watched the snow flakes drop down one by one. "When will my lover come home from work?" She thought to heself, hoping the voices in her head will go away soon as he comes home.
She didn't want to fall into depression while she was awake. She would rather wait till she were asleep. Though she could not stand hearing those horrible thoughts about herself while she's wide awake. It would play over and over, and over again just to drive her so mad she started to cry sometimes. So the put herself away for the evening, away from everyone else. Hoping that will solve her problems. She didn't want to feel bitter with anyone but the voices in her head told her otherwise.
She quietly tiptoed upstairs hoping no one heard her, to lie down and listen to her music. While she was waiting for her lover to come home from work, she hope'd he would bring her some cheese cake but she doubted that would happen.
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Awake
FantasíaAbout a girl who has bad anxiety and depression but fights it and never gives up.
