Lover's Dictionary

"A"

Aa, n. 

The first letter of the English alphabet.  Also, the start of both of our names. It would be easy for us to move in together.  "I'll just buy towels and stuff with the letter A on them for us, it wouldn't matter" that never happened . I could tell you were hesitant about taking this too seriously. I never brought up matters like that again.

Abundance, adj.

You told me what you liked the apartment while telling me everything you would change about it if you lived here. We had an argument two weeks after my move in date that I missed the notion that all people have ice cube trays.  Fucking ice cubes were the last thing on my mind after we got the bed put together.  Now I have plenty of ice cube trays.

Abstraction, n.

I don't think I miss you at all.  I miss the idea of you.  The mornings of coffee and rushing to get you home because we stayed in bed too long. The smell of a woman in my bed. Of barefoot cooking in the kitchen. Of morning sex, late night sex and anything else you are willing to give me.

Achilles' heel, n.

Our first fight happened and I told you that I think we should take a break because of a distance issue and it felt like we were wanting different things.  You thought I didn't find you attractive or didn't want you at all.  You broke me.  I made you cry for the first time saying that then I spent the rest of the night trying to repair you.

Admire , v.

I try to shy away.  I don't want you to ask questions about scars or tattoos. Your eyes scan my body and your fingertips trace my tattoos followed finally by your lips. I'm too easy.

You try to shy away, as you always do, in a blanket.  I warm you up with cuddling, rubbing your stomach and chest and saying smooth words.  I expose you slowly with kisses to your neck and shoulders until your breathing gets hitched and trembling.  You help me pull down your blanket defense to your sensitive breasts. I spend as much time as you need teasing and pleasing them with my mouth and hands.  Your head rolls back onto my pillows and you start to press circles into my upper back, keeping me there.  I go back up to your neck a few times until you tell me you are ready

Alesana, n.

That tattoo you never wanted to see.

Anthem, n.
"What is this song?" You question as we made a date of thrift shopping.
"It's Santa Monica by Everclear." Then you got close to me and whispered in my ear that this is why you're my girlfriend.  We spent the rest of the day finding unique reasons why we were each other's girlfriend.

Arduous, adj.

No gay shit at all when I met your mom and your family.

Artificial, adj.

Nothing has ever just fallen into my lap.

Asleep, v.

I've shared the bed with a lot of people.  Some say they want the left side or the right side. Some say they don't care.  You had to be different.  You strictly like sleeping on the right side of the bed, turned away from me. What was this? Are you really that shy that you can't have me see you vulnerable and defenseless? It was only when I was exiting or opening the door I could see how you looked asleep.

Asperity, n.

The crying, the phone calls, the panic attacks, withholding sex

You always had my attention without being in any sort of relationship. Fuck you. 

Asshole, n.

Yes, I'm admitting it.  Be sure to screenshot this: I'm a little less than kind sometimes when I speak or when we really didn't see eye to eye. I did things to make you hate me. Forcing you to stop talking to me or to end the relationship. Things have never worked out for me and I have made it that way. I probably deserve this.

I don't fucking know what's going on with my life