just you :: verkwan

just you ::

Seungkwan stood there, watching his boyfriend kissing other girl's cheek. He can literally feel himself burning up--not because of fever but because of anger. Of jealousy. Of pain.

He never imagined Vernon can do this to him. Their relationship wasn't perfect--because who has? But he's 100% sure they are okay, they are doing fine.

But what bullshit is this? 'Is Vernon cheating on me?' is all Seungkwan could think of.

After his boyfriend kissed that itchy bitchy spider, he watched as Vernon watched the itchy bitchy spider ride the taxi.

'They are so sweet, sugar is shaking', Seungkwan thought and rolled his eyes.

He waited Vernon to look at his direction and so Vernon did. Seungkwan saw how his boyfriend stopped from breathing while his eyeballs seems like falling from his face and gulped.

Seungkwan just looked at his boyfriend with cold eyes and walked away.

Vernon immediately ran towards Seungkwan and held the Seungkwan's arms.

"Baby--" before Vernon could finish his sentence, Seungkwan pull his arms away and face his boyfriend. He can see different emotions through his eyes---fear, worry, longingness---but Seungkwan couldn't care less.
He's way too hurt to even think of how his boyfriend is looking at him.

"Don't.touch.me." Seungkwan said firmly making Vernon gulped big time.
He can sense his boyfriend's anger and he knew he have some explaining to do.

"B-baby, let me e-explain..." Vernon tried not to be that obvious he's so scared and he's screaming from the inside. The way Seungkwan looked at him just punched his heart so hard, it feels like it cracked.

"Explain what, hmm? What do you want to explain?" His boyfriend's lips were straight, indicating he's composing himself to calm down.

Vernon gulped and tried to get a hold of Seungkwan's forearms but the latter pushed it away again.

Seungkwan chuckled but you can hear the sarcasm and hatred from it.

"Why would you even explain? I saw everything, Hansol. You don't have to explain everything," Seungkwan said.

"Baby, I swear, it's not what you think! I can explain, baby, just hear me out," Vernon was literally begging but Seungkwan was so hard he cannot read his mind.

Seungkwan was holding his tears so well but the lump in his throat was there. He never imagined Hansol can do this to him, to them. The Hansol he knew would never cheat on him. It didn't even came to his mind because he said that's the least thing he would do to him. But look at them now.
They were there, in the sidewalk, standing in front of each other, making people look at them and judge them.

"You can just tell me, you know. You c-can tell me if you have someone e-else already.. I'll let y-you go," and the tears Seungkwan was holding finally dropped from his eyes, wetting his fluffy cheeks.

Vernon felt like his world just crushed down the moment he saw those tears that fell from his boyfriend's eyes. He wants to wipe those away, kiss his baby in the lips and hug him so tight while whispering his reasons but he know better than to do that. He know Seungkwan will just push him off--or worst leave him here. So, he restrained himself from doing that and tried to explain everything to his boyfriend.

"Baby, listen to me. I don't have someone else. You are my boyfriend, and that will stay that way until you say 'Yes' to me after I propose to you after I get the ring I was telling my cousin to make for me," Vernon slowly explain everything to his boyfriend while looking directly at his eyes. He can see his boyfriend's eyes were shining because of tears--tears that he made. It would've been his pleasure to let his life--Seungkwan--to cry because of too much happiness, but no, those tears was because of his doing that led to misunderstanding, that led to his life shredding tears. Vernon wanted to punch himself for hurting his universe.