Forever And Always (one direction)

The Begining Of The End

"Are you ready?" I ask the boy next to me.

"How can I ever be ready for this?" he answers my question with another question.

He's right though, how can anyone prepare themselves for something like this? How can we just walk on to the stage knowing that it will be the last time we will ever do that.

The beat of the music starts up and I immediately recognize it as our cue to go on the stage for the last time. i look again to the boy on my left and take a deep breath before we both run out onto the stage together, the other boys following close behind.

The lights blind me when i rush up onto the stage but I dont mind it. i know it is the last time this will ever happen to me. As I stare out at the sea of screaming fans, i realize just how much i will miss it. Even though the screaming leaves me def every night, i will still miss the thrill from making so many people feel so happy.

I will miss being able to sing in front of thousands of people. I will miss the adrenaline coursing through my veins. And I will miss the family we have made by simply being us, the fans and the tour crew.

Although the fans dont know its coming, i know they can sense something is different. Maybe it's the way Niall seems to be exaggerating his jumps. Or maybe it's the way Zayn is singing his notes like its the last time he will ever sing again. or the way that Harry just seems uncomfortable and unsure of everything he does. he hasn't even said one of his infamous cheesy jokes yet. Or maybe its Liam, he looks like he's about to cry and he wont even talk into the microphone for the fear of accidentally crying in front of the fans.

we promised each other to keep up a happy facade until the concerts over, for the fans. Its harder than we thought it would be, with all of our negative thoughts flowing through our head.