Insight

I am all by myself in this lonely place, with crowd of thousands all around me. I took refuge to a small coffee house which was the replica of Starbucks with the name 'Blackbucks'. This is the place where no one's around. Apparently because coffee houses are underrated in Rohtak, the heart of Haryana, a land known for its desi culture but still its home to some of us, the lone dwellers, the crazy insane lovers in the quest of life, dreams and passion.

And here I am with three of my problems.
1. My ex boyfriend who dumped me for my fake ID.
2. My internship in  brain and cognitive science at MIT.
3. My boyfriend who is leaving behind his dreams.

The thing is I am done and I am going to shoo off my past, let go my present to his future and aspire in my present for my future .

I have called Viraj here , so that we can talk about our relationship but before him I will be meeting Karan at the very same place to summit up the mess.

He is late as usual.

I can't believe how can someone adapt to this very lifestyle of lethargy and deficiency of punctuality but on second thoughts, who cares! I broke up with him five years back.

I ordered a cappuccino for myself. There was no one else in the coffee house so I was having my tryst with my cup of completeness.

There was something different in that cup of coffee, probably it activated that functional area of my cortex that I didn't even know existed, my Insight.

My insight awoke, and I was living the flashbacks of my relationship with karan. The moments we spend together, the moment he dumped ne and threw me in the fits of crying my night out over the spilled beer.
And when I was finally happy and satisfied with Viraj, he bumped again with a sorry to say, apologies and another round of commitments and fake assurances.

May be I never loved him. Because after meeting Viraj when I look back, may be this is what love is, when you are ready to give upon your dreams for making dreams of others true.

In a few minutes I found myself drawing differences between my two relationships.

I used to feel very distracted when I was with Karan and the late teen me thought this is the love that is prying on my focus but do love make us weak?

No right!

Love is something that strengthens us from inside to outside, something that inspire us and that's what feels like being around with Viraj. It is pretty simple.
I am in love with Viraj and that too for the first time.

There's a fine line between love and likeness and today my insight made me realise it. But love and relationship often come up with promises and sacrifices. I am going to realise my dream of becoming a scientist but Viraj has forgotten his dream of photography  just to make me realise my dreams.
It's okay love comes with sacrifices but why only one person had to do that.

He may not admit it but 'we' are holding him back and that's why it's my time to step back and let him fly for his dreams, his real passion. And that's going to be the saddest part of all because he gave me feelings that I couldn't put to words.

This is may be what destiny has for me.

I was interrupted by my self talks by the same old face.
That was Karan.

"Hi Ananya, looking gorgeous as usual."

"Hey karan."

"I know you are thinking about us."

"No"

May be that hurt him but this was my inner voice speaking out of me.
He continued,

"Baby, just give me one chance to put everything in place and everything would be back to normal. Trust me!"