what is pain? pain is life.
pain is loss
pain is everything
and it is nothing
why is the pain here?
why won't it leave?
i am wrong
there's something bad inside me
that's why the pain always comes back
i can't breath
am i drowning?
no
i am already dead
i feel the pain everyday. sometimes it's hidden deep, so deep i forget its there. but it is there. it is always there. i want it to go.
why won't it just fucking go!
i don't want you here. your just holding me down. because of you i will always hurt those who care. why they care i don't know, but they do. or do they? they always leave me, or hurt me, or make me feel worthless. maybe because i am worthless... worthless... worth... less... worth less than anyone...
i know what you are going to say. "no your not, you are loved". "they care! you aren't worthless". but you don't know me? i am a name behind a screen. am i real? maybe i am faking it for attention? maybe i am cutting my wrists as i write this? maybe i am alone in a dark room laying on the floor listening to music and bitching about my shitty life that's not really that shit compared to others...
i guess i am just fucked up. i don't know. I don't care anymore.
YOU ARE READING
everything feels wrong
Poetrywhy does the pain always come back. i thought it was done, i thought i could finally be... happy
