Absolutely Beautiful The Way You Are

time heals.

Flashback to 5 years ago, I was an eager sixteen-year-old with my whole life ahead of me — a bright eyed and bushy tailed little teenager who just wanted to be happy. But of course, all sixteen year olds face the terrible 'H' word; Heartbreak.

The cause of my destruction was a tall, dark and handsome young man - oh how I loved him. I loved him more than love allowed. He robbed me of the same gift he bestowed upon my sad little life; happiness. After the demise of our relationship, I spent years trying to get over him, as most people do. The pain was unlike anything I could ever imagine — as if my heart were stung by a million bees over and over again. No amount of wishing or crying or banging my head against the concrete walls would ever heal me. I thought there was no way of getting better from this; no way of healing.

Flash forward; 21 year old me.

I was sitting at home, waiting for my boyfriend to return from his day out with his family. The love of my life. There was no pain with him; aside from the pain of simply loving him so much. It was easy with him. He never made me question anything, the security he provided was beyond my expectations. He made me feel safe and all I could think of was that poor sixteen year old girl, crying in her room for a boy who didn't know how to love — who didn't know even know who he was yet.

I thanked him. I thanked him for leaving me the way he did. I thanked him for breaking my heart the way he did. Because without that, I wouldn't have met the love of my life.

Time heals everything.

You've just gotta push on until everything is okay again.