Alison
"Come on,Ali it's gonna be the best day you'll ever have!"
"Sorry,I'm not interested in those kind of boring things."
"Ugh,have a life,Ali. You always think about studies,biology,and chemistry stuff. BORING."
"Oh,come on. That's not boring."
Hanna is always like this. Convincing me to go to some party to a stranger named Noel Kahn,even though he's a hot guy and a son of a bitch,he's not an interesting one. Hanna also persuade me to go to clubs at night,and places I don't know. I had to come with her and lie to my parents just so i can see her smile. I'm being a good friend,but what I get back is just some bullshit.
"Why do you love to just stay home? I gave you a life every night but you just keep acting like you don't want and just move on instead."
"Hanna,it's called pretending. I did that all just to be with you all night! I never wanted to let you down! I gave you every friendship I have with you but you just pay me back with some dirt on the floor?! Oh,thank you so much."
Why am i yelling at my best friend at the halls,in front of my locker,and letting everyone know that I'm pissed off? I'm so stupid.
Hanna didn't say anything anymore,i think she lost her words.
"What 'life' are you talking about? You NEVER gave me anything! You just let me feel someone like someone I'm not! You're just using me!"
I smacked my locker and that made her jumped. It looks like she's scared of me,she better be. I look at her in the eye of a deadly look for the first time,and she swallows her throat slowly.
"I'm not gonna be the person that always follow what it's master told it to do."
I clenched at my bag,and turn away,starting to start the steps away from Hanna. Passing her,and walking almost running to the washroom. I walk as fast as I could,everyone is looking at me. I feel so embarrassing. Like I always do. I can't stop this feeling. This horrible feeling of feeling horrible. It's just sick. I'd always feel like this whenever I'm alone.
Why does this always happen to me?
I always ask myself that,when I feel so miserable. There's no one in the washroom,i checked,so I got in one of the room and sit on the toilet bowl. Tears start to drop and it feels warm. The tears feel warm and it's for Hanna. I regretted yelling in front of her,she's the only friend I have. I'm huffing so badly,i keep clenching my hands into fist balls. I mess my hair,and swing my body back and forth. I pinch my own nail,and let all the regret,sorrow,and full of sand in my heart like a deserted island. Dry and empty. Just full of dust of sand.
*knock *knock *knock
I look up to the door,i think someone is there. Crap.
"Who is It?"
Oh no,my voice is too shaky and cracking. I think she heard me crying.
"Are you okay?"
"It's..none of your business to know if I'm okay or not. Do I sound okay?"
Why am i being snappy? She just wanted to know if I'm fine.
"Calm down,i know you're tired of everything. Just..come out,and talk about it to me."
"I don't want to talk about."
"Then let me help you weather away that awful feeling."
Why would she help me? I'm a miserable person that doesn't deserve any sympathy. Or apathy.
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