A Happy Pill Or A Ray Gun. Choose. (A Party Poison Fanfic) (ON HOLD)

The Past Is Back

"And you still love me?" i asked looking into his eyes.

"Yes" he mumbled, just before stop looking at me and look at the floor. 

"Then, i don't care about Ghoul" I say just before hugging him tightly. I could feel how he is shocked at first but then he wraps his arms around me. He pulls away and looks at me smiling.

Okay, i think i have something to explain now. Before the dracs got me, i was dating Ghoul. I mean, i loved him, i was happy with him. But he wasn't exatcly the person that i wanted to be next to me. That person... that person was Party. One day he walked in Party and me kissing. And that was the end of "us" i guess you could say. I still remember when i used to call him Frank, now i only call him Ghoul. Damn. I was lost in my mind reminding what happened that night that i didn't even noticed that i started crying.

"What's wrong Toxic?" Party asked hugging me and rubbing my back slowly. I was sobing in his shoulder. 

"Just memories" i whispered in his ear. He sighed and mumbled

"About what?" I could tell him the truth. He was already too hurt about that. Since that night Party and Ghould teared apart to the point to almost act as they didn't know eachother, and that was breaking me so much. 

"When i wa-was in the S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W" i whisper, he just hugs me tightly and says.

"I'm never gonna let them take you, never again" He seemed sure about what he was saying, but i highly doubted i will be much longer with them. The dracs will get them or get me soon. How i knew that? Oh well, long story short. I pulled away and looked at him with a hopeless smile. He just sighed.

"I'm gonna sleep for a while more if you don't mind" I mumbled. He nodded and sat back on the chair. I lay down in the bed and i let out an "Auch" reminding me that i got beaten up just the before i escaped.

"Are you okay?" Party asked looking at me worried.

"Yeah, just... nothing" i answered, yawning and closing my eyes. Letting that the last thing i saw before fell asleep was Party.

I don't know how much time i spent sleeping but when i woke up, i was alone in the room. I sighed and sat up on the bed. I rubbed my eyes softly and yawned. 

"Hey..." I heard someone say as they entered the room it was Mikey. Yes, i'm not used to call Mikey, Kobra, like i do it accidentally. 

"Hi Mikey" i mumble. He had two coffees on his hands and he handed me one.

"I thought you would like to have a coffee when you woke up" he smiled at me. I looked down at the cup, and drank a little bit. Wow, it was a long time since i didn't taste coffee. 

"Thank you" i said looking up to him and smiling.

"Anything to my bestfriend" i chuckled at his words. I loved this dude so much. He finished his coffee quicklier than me, but he just waited sitting next to me until i finished it too.

"Where are the others?" I asked. Where is Party. Is what i was thinking.

"Ghould is checking something on the Trans Am, Jet and Party are probably trying to rest" 

"You should go to rest too, I bet you haven't sleep tonight for me" He looked up at me laughing.

"Tonight? You've been here three days sleeping" He said. What? Three days? I... I.... Fuck. I had to get out of here, by now probably the dracs already now where i am and if they aware that i'm with the Killjoys, they are also or getting ghosted or getting caught, and for me, i prefered being ghosted. But i couldn't let that something happens to them, because without them the world is prettty fucked up. 

"What? Really? That long? Wow" i mumbled, Mikey just nodded and laughed. I looked at him, when he noticed he looked at me in the eyes.

"Something is wrong, isn't it?" he asked me. Damn he knew me too well. I sighed and nodded, and i returned my eyes to the floor. "You know you can tell me right?"  He said looking at me. I looked up to him and said.

"I know Mikey" and i hugged him tightly. He hugged back and whispered.

"Is for Gerard and Frank?" he asked. That was part of the problme but not the most important part at all.

"No, don't worry" i said and half smiled, he mouth an 'okay'. Someone knocked at the door and Mikey got up to open the door.

"Hey Ghoul" he whispered, and i saw Ghoul walking into the room. "It's my turn, you need to rest like Party and Jet, you are the one that most time spent awake" he said looking at Mikey and patting his arm. 

"Okay, thank you" Kobra mumbled and smiled warmly as he got out of the room. Ghoul came near me and sat in the chair in front of my bed. A long and awkward silence happened. Until he finally spoke.

"Toxic, you need some more rest" he looked up to me. He had a sad expression on his face. 

"I know, but i don't wanna sleep more" i mumbled looking at him, we stayed some seconds staring into eachother eyes, just before suddenly i felt Ghoul's lips in mine. I was shocked at first, i didn't want to kiss him back but finally i did. He pulled away and looked at me into my eyes.

"April, i love you." he mumbled, i felt a tear stream down my face. "I know, i know it. But i just wanted you to know that" he said as he got up leaving me there, with millions of thoughts running throught my mind.

He still cares.

After all you did, he still cares.

he stills loving me

And... i don't know how i feel anymore

No, no, no

Yes i do.

I love Gerard

But Frank... 

A/N: HIIII! I hope that you enjoy this >.< and please comment what you thought of it, if i should keep writing or what? Also vote if you like it :) I'll be updating soon i think