In fourth grade I went out with this guy named Will. It lasted uhm..8 months give or take. Fifth grade we didn't talk, sixth grade ended with a confrontation, and seventh we became friends again. Now he's one of my budds, and I'm happy. I just wish with most of my being that I didn't let Kaylin persuade me so much in the relationship. She would always tell me things, and always told me I should break up with him, and once at the end of fourth grade, it almost worked. I think she felt bad in the end cause I was like basically crying, because I was just so confused about it, so she told me nevermind. Everything she told me though, she would never say what she did the cause that reaction in will, only that he kicked her in gym, not that she kicked him first, left that clear out, Will's the one who would explain to me what happened. And in fifth grade, we didn't so much break up as did we just stop talking and drifted enough to say that we did, guess who liked Will? Yep, Kaylin. So, five years later, I'm still thinking about Will, and wondering what happened. And the conclusion I'm coming to? I let Kaylin, who now obviously liked Will that whole time, persuade me to end it with my first boyfriend, the guy, if the 'scientific studies' are right, I was 'in love' with. And I don't think I could ever forgive her for that, because sadly, I still like him, and I don't think I ever stopped, not really. And naturally, he moved on, likes this girl named Izzy, I don't know her, but her Twitter picture is really pretty, from what I can see. Obviously I'm happy for him, or will be when they go out, but it's just gonna hurt a little bit. But I should be used to it, this basically is what happens; I like him, he likes her, pays me no thought, and I hate myself a little more for not being good enough. I just wish Will knew, ya know? Like so I could get it off my chest, and be able to move on. I want to be able to explain how I think Kaylin took a role in this, and how it's my fault about what all happened, tell him how I feel, and explain how I know he doesn't feel the same way, and how I'm moving on, I just don't think I could having all that kind of clogging up my heart and mind, and how I'm sorry.
