A/N so I've been obsessed with this particular song for a couple days now. I'm not going to tell you the song because it's embarrassing. Anyway it sparked some inspiration. So here's a very short one shot. Maybe it'll turn into a multi-chapter. I'm not sure yet. ENJOY!
Mitchie
I sighed as I ran my hand through my hair again. I really have to stop coming to this place. It only reminds me of you. It's been 5 months since you left me. As I look out at the lake I realize that I'm not at all. I miss everything about you. I miss the way you'd dance around in the kitchen in your underwear and t-shirt while you mindlessly stirred the batter for the pancakes. I miss the way your nose would crinkle whenever you smelled something you didn't like. I miss the way you'd throw your head back laughing when I would sing horribly to whatever song came on the radio. Sometimes my song would come on and you'd just smile at me as you blasted the radio. You'd make me sing along to every word. I hate that I can't forget the little things. I wish everyday that I could. I see the headlines everywhere I go. You seem so happy with him. How you can you look so happy already? Seems to you that our relationship was nothing. It was everything to me. Two years of my life. Two years I'll never get back. Two years that I don't want back. I can't stand seeing his face on magazines. I would love nothing more than to punch him in it. That's all anyone talks about. How good you guys look together. Makes me sick to my stomach even thinking about it. I wish it was me you were waking up to and not him. I wish it was me you were attending award show with and not him. But that's wishful thinking nowadays. You seem to be fine. How could you be fine? I'm a fucking wreck without you. None the less it was my own doing that pushed you away. My constant drug use and drinking after the first year of our relationship was a lot to handle. The two times I cheated on you didn't help at all either. I'm mentally fucked up and that is what I believed caused our demise. I don't blame you at all. I surprised you stuck around for as long as you did. I'll never forget the day you left. Your tear stained cheeks and tired smile is something I'll never forget. Sometimes I wish I could wake up and forget everything we ever had together. It would make me life a hell of a lot easier.
