Can't Hide It

Remus was sitting in his favorite armchair in the gryffindor common room and was reading. Well, in fact he was staring at the page. Actually he was trying to look anywhere else than what he was really looking at.
These small blue lines under Sirius' tanktop which showed definitely too much of his skin. Or too less? Moony couldn't really decide.

He knew all of padfoots appearance was just there to show how much he wasn't like the rest of his family.
Which was totally understandable for Remus. If his parents had treated him like that, he maybe would've done the same thing. OK, well, if his parents were like Sirius', he couldn't have survived until then.
He felt so bad for his handsome roommate. Every time something reminded him of Sirius' cruel fate there was a stinging pain in his heart.

But a few months ago he started to feel a similar pain more often. Like every time he saw Padfoot with a new girlfriend. Or when the marauders planned a new mischief and he was discussing with Prongs, excitedly fixing the other boy's eyes and not Moony's. Or all the time when the black haired boy smiled at ANYONE but HIM.

It took Remus more than six weeks to figure out that what he felt was jealousy. And that he felt it because he was TOTALLY F***ING IN LOVE WITH SIRIUS ORION PADFOOT BLACK AKA HIS BEST FRIEND!

Since then he recognized the other feeling he had every time his eyes fell on the disowned Black boy. A funny, warm...thing in his stomach. He always knew that Sirius was handsome but now he was just like Omg! This tattoos on his rips, this perfect colored skin, this smooth, curly black hair and look at those steel grey eyes! He's hot like hell!

And don't even ask what happens when Padfoots soft skin touched Moony's.
His whole body shivering and blood shooting up into his head.
And Remus cheeks would be literally on fire.

And now the boy he wanted so much stood up and walked over to his place.
The wolf's heart started to race just as fast as it did during his transformation at a full moon.

"Do you need something?", asked Sirius.
Yes, you! "N-no, I don't. W-why should I...I mean mean you came to me, didn't you?"
Damn this boy was really driving him mad.
"Yeah, I did. But only because you were staring at me like you wanted to eat me or something!" Sirius didn't now how close he was. Remus felt himself blush.
He was trapped and he couldn't think of any good explanation for it as long as this perfect body -with it's muscles and this super hot face with this naughty smile on top- was standing right in front of him.

"Well-er-I...I was just wondering if you have already read this book."
Sirius grin suddenly turned into bright laughter.
"Oh, so that's what you wanted to ask me for about one month before we even knew about this book. You're the worst liar I know, so please just don't lie to me. I know there's something going on with you."
"I don't wanna lie to you....I-I just can't tell you..."
"So it's about feelings, right?"
Remus nervously bit his lower lip. Oh my god he knows!
"Um...what made you think that? There's a lot of things I don't tell you!"
Sirius raised an eyebrow.
"You're lying again. We talk about everything except of feelings. For these you usually talk to Lily and sometimes James. But then, why are you always watching me if you don't want to talk to me ab...Oh!"
Sirius stopped smirking and his eyes grew wide.

"D-do you have feelings for me?"

Remus head was about to explode.
What to do right now? What should he say? Moony blushed even more (if that was possible) and then he just shrugged.
For a few moments there was an awkward silence.
Remus' eyes tried to escape Sirius'.
Suddenly the werewolf stood up and almost ran out of the common room through the portrait hole and out of sight.

"Hey, be careful young boy. That's not exactly how you treat a lady, is it?!", complained the fat lady. Remus ignored her.
Two seconds later the portrait swung open for a second time and again he was face to face with the boy he loved.
Slowly Sirius shut the portrait hole and came dangerously close. Moony stepped backwards until he was trapped between the other boy and the banisters.
"So you do have feelings for me!"
It wasn't a question. He swallowed while Sirius pushed himself even closer and put his hands onto Remus' hips, who was very confused by now.

What does that mean? Does he also like me? But his brain wasn't working with HIS f*cking beautiful, perfect face so close to his own. Unable to think, Moony couldn't resist it anymore and suddenly his lips pressed on Padfoot's.
It felt so right to him to finally do what he wanted to do for months.
Then his mind came back.
What on earth did he just do? This could ruin everything!
Sirius didn't push away. It even seemed like he was pulling the other boy's body closer to his own.
But now Remus did. He stared into the ground his hands going to fists and whispered over an over again
"Oh I'm so stupid, so f*cking stupid. What did I do. Oh I'm so stupid..."
His eyes shot up when a hand touched his shoulder.
Sirius was standing right in front of him again and his other hand reached out for Remus' neck.

"I like you too, Moony!"
And he kissed him back.
Although it was a very soft kiss it made a firework explode in Remus body.
With every move Sirius' lips seemed to tell him that he loved every part of this werewolf, no matter what happened in the past or will happen in the future.
Right now they just loved and needed each other more than anything and anyone else in this world.

The end

Thanks for reading!
-N-