a kiss on the wrist

Chapter 23- tell me this is all a dream

When i woke up, the dream flashed in my head, i wished it were real but it wasn't niall was leaving and not coming back, that part i know was real, but niall never came back last night, i never held niall in my arms, and in a way I'm glad the dream wasn't real.

I could still hear niall's voice in my mind. I can't believe it, my dream was so nice, but i hated niall, i didn't want to hold him, i didn't want to kiss him, touch him, or even look at him for that matter, i became angry, just thinking about him.

I wiped my eyes and looked around, the clock read 1:03 am. i was alone i thought , but i was wrong, niall was sitting in the chair staring at me.

"What are you doing here?" I asked bitterly. "I never went to sleep, i can't sleep knowing that i hurt you, knowing that you're in here because me, it makes me sick to look at myself, i-i came to say sorry, again" he said

"Yeah well i don't need it, i don't want your apology, it won't make a difference, because no matter what you say niall it won't change the way i feel about you, i hate you niall, i hate you," i cried, looking at him.

"Robin, i know you don't mean that, i love you, you said it yourself, you love me" he cried, reaching for my hand. I yanked it away and glared at him.

"Niall i loved you, but you hurt me, this time you crossed a line, you lied to me, you betrayed me, you played me, i gave myself to you, and you do this? No niall, this is it, I told you i was done, and i am, i can't do this with you, i thought i could, but i can't." I sighed.

"You know niall, i hate being mean, but what am i supposed to do now? Am i supposed to be nice to you, no. Honestly, i don't care anymore, just leave, just go niall, because i don't even want to see you. I don't want to see you ever again, i hate you and i always will, so just go!" I yelled.

"If that's what you want I'll leave, robin i know i said it once, and I'll say it again, i will always love you, no matter what happens. My planes leaving soon, I've got to go" he said before stopping next to me. He stared down at me, he placed his hand on my cheek, leaned down and gave it a gentle kiss before leaving.

I let out soft sobs as i realized what i just told niall. "God what did i do?" I cried

But was niall right? Did i mean it all, or was i just saying it in the heat of the moment. I couldn't think, i closed my eyes as frustrated tears broke through and ran down my face, disobeying me.

I spent the rest of the morning crying and thinking. It was already 8:30 and i was still alone and haven't slept at all.

As time passed i slowly closed my eyes, the thoughts of niall wouldn't leave my mind, why was i the one feeling sorry for him, it just wasn't right, it couldn't be.

I heard a faint knock. I yelled to come in and to my surprise, louis came in, with flowers, a card, and a teddy bear.

"This is for you robin," he said softly, handing me the card and the teddy bear, placing the flowers in the table beside me, sitting down on the chair beside my bed.

"Robin, i know you really don't want to see me, but do you need anything," he asked. I thought about his offer.

"Louis honestly," i said, wiping the tears that dared to slip from my eyes, looking up to keep them in. "I need a hug," i shook my head.

He gave me a sincere look and stood from his chair, grabbing me into his arms as he sat on the side of my bed.

I didn't care who he was right now, i needed this hug. I squeezed him and cried into his neck. His hand trailed to my back, stroking from the back of my head, and going down my back.

"It's ok robin, shh" he whispered into my ear, still rubbing my back soothingly. "Louis why is everything falling apart?" I cried. Realizing that i was about to get personal with louis,

"I'm sorry i just got caught in the moment i know you probably have no interest in talking to me or anything" i laughed, pulling away a from him.

"No robin I'm sorry, this is all my fault, and i have every interest to talk to you that's what i came here for, because I'm trying to fix things, for you and niall." I stopped and looked up at him,

"You can't let him go, robin you have to chase after him, you have to go get him, don't ever let him go, I'm telling you the minute he had you in his life, i noticed a change in everything, he seemed happier, he seemed to be so full of life, he was so alive, and love struck, he loves you robin and i know he hurt you, but deep down you know you love him, stop being mad, if you should be mad at anyone be mad at me, hate me, but not niall, we have to go get him now before it's too late," he told me, standing up.

"Louis i dont know, i said so much to him, he probably hates me, i was so mean to him, and louis i do love him, but he hurt me so bad, I'm supposed to hate him, but your right deep down i know i could never hate him,"

I looked up at him as i heard a jingle.

"Well come on don't waste time we gotta sneak you out of here," he told me. I smiled and stood up, unplugging myself from all the wires and needles hooked up to me.

"Now come on put these on, i grabbed the clothes from harrys house, " he said handing me my underwear and bra, along with my skinny jeans, my black vans, and my maroon shirt that had a cat on it with the words roar in black.

"Thanks," i said as he turned around, locking the door and waiting for me to change

I quickly put my clothes on and walked to louis.

"Here wear this, he said taking the beanie from his head and fixing it onto mine.

"Put your hair up in it," he told me, helping me shove the strands in.

"I I'll go out and talk to the doctors, you make your way outside, and find my car, it's by the emergency entrance, once i see you leave i will go after you" he told me, giving me a hug and his keys and walking out

I nodded and watched as he distracted the doctors and nurses, by knocking over a a cart full of supplies.

"Oh gosh I'm such a clutz , I'm sorry," he apologized as they all ran toward it, trying to pick up the broken glass and spilt chemicals.

I took off, quickly. I bumped into a doctor as i hurried out. I looked down and heard louis running to me.

"Sorry sir, my girlfriend, she's uh a little tired, we've been here all day," he said taking my hand in his.

"Well get some sleep, you look like you've been through hell," he replied, patting my back and walking past us. "Close one," louis laughed, letting go of my hand and running to. The elevator.

My bandages had been covered by Louis's jacket, and my legs hurt.

I felt a little light headed seeing as i and t gotten out of bed in a day or two.

"Come on the cars just around the corner," he said pulling me along.

I nodded and tried to keep up with his fast pace, but the bandages were wrapped so tightly around my legs, and it made it hard to move.

"We have half an hour to get there, it takes ten minutes to get there, and about twenty to get through," i sighed, as louis stepped on the gas, leaving the hospital.