The new reality

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I was on my phone, deciding whether I should or shouldn't call Eric, my boyfriend, when I heard my mom talking about me downstairs. 

"Will she be okay with it? I mean she is very shy, what if she doesn't  find any friends?" She said

"Don't worry, she's a..." I couldn't hear the rest of the sentence.

Alright something is clearly going on. I didn't think too much of it and decided to call Eric.

"Hey babe, what are you doing?" I asked

"Not much, still up for tonight?"

"Yeah, my parents are home though"

"I thought they were in London? We can be here if you want, my parents are out so it's just me and my sister home"

"Yeah, that would be bet.." I couldn't finish the sentence, mom interrupted.

"Victoria, darling! We need to tell you something!" She yelled.

"I need to go, I'll be there by nine".

"Okay, love you".

"I love you too". I said and hung up the phone. 

I walked downstairs to find my whole family sitting around the dinner table. I slowed down.

"Is something going on?" I slowly asked.

"Sit down" dad said, so I did.

"We have something to tell you. As you know your father recently started working at his new job, and they want him to.." she took a break. I was starting to get really nervous.

"They want him to move to the United States. He said yes, and of course we will follow him. As a family."

"Wait, are we moving to America? This is my biggest dream! I love you mom and dad!" My little brother, Simon , was clearly excited. I understand it, he has this fascination with America, he is very social and has a lot of friends. It will be nice for him, but for me? Moving to another country? I'm the shy one, I won't find friends, I will leave my friends and boyfriend here, I don't know the school system, I don't know anything! I started to freak out. 

"Is it already planned? For how long? Oh my gash I won't know anybody! You should have asked us first!" I could feel the anxiety come.

"Calm down. It's only for a year. See it as a new opportunity. Of course you will make friends!" Dad said.

"And what about the ones I have? What about Eric?"

"I'm sure he can visit us".

Haily started crying.

"See? She doesn't want to move either!"

"Victoria, she is five months! She is just stressed because you're screaming! We understand how you feel, and we know that we did a mistake by not asking you first. But see this as an opportunity."

I ran up to my room. I didn't want to ruin it for them, they truly seemed excited. Why am I always in the way? Why am I always the one to ruin and destroy things?

...

I woke up by my mom sitting next to me, slowly stroking my hair. I was so confused, when did I fall asleep? 

"You have slept for three hours, I thought it was time to wake you up. It's 5pm." 

"Okay, why are you.." I realized what happend before I fell asleep.

Mom must have noticed, because she told me not to think about it.

"How can I not? I'm worried. I'm scared."

"I know, baby. But you will always have us, no matter what. I know you're scared, but everything will be fine. You just need to believe in yourself a bit more." She said.

"I know. I love you. Sorry for screaming, I didn't mean to ruin your happiness. I was just shocked."

"Don't worry, we know. Do you want to come down? Simon are baking cookies to make you happy again. We also want to show where we are going to live." She smiled, I smiled too. I really love my family.

"I'll come down when they're ready. I would rather see it tomorrow though, when I'm a bit calmer about it. Is that okay?

"Of course. Do you want some time alone?"

I nodded and mom walked out.

The afternoon went on and the more I thought about it, the easier it felt. I could start a new life there. Pretend to be someone else, pretend to be the person I have always wanted to be but haven't had the courage to be. Just start over. Be more brave, talk more, be remembered. I really started to like the idea.

Ding, it was a text from Eric. It stood: will you come over a bit earlier? I'm a bit horny...". Oh gash, he is always really clear with what he's feeling. I like that. He isn't the type to hint about something, if he wants something, he will say it. But he's also very accepting of everyone elses opinion. He's perfect. I answered: Sure, my sexy. I always cringed when I wrote things like that, but it was true. He is sexy, and I'm turned on.

I started to get dressed while thinking about what of a fun night this would be..