Lynn's POV
I woke up in my bed. The smell of pancakes and bacon filled my nostrils.
I rushed downstairs and found my mom making pancakes
"Mommy!" I exclaimed hugging her tightly. I haven't seen her in weeks! and Yes I still call her Mommy.
"Hey sweetcheeks" She answered kissing my forehead.
"I've missed you so much mommy." I said
"Me too, how've you been? I feel like you've gotten taller.. have you been eating? you look skinnier. Have you taken your pills?" Mom said all at once
I forgot to mention, I have anxiety pills.. They help me calm down. Yesturday I didn't happen to have them.. so I threw a major fit. I don't regret beating Vanessa up. Hayes went with Vanessa though. He left me with Jess and Marcus.
I mean it was okay I guess.. but I wanted him there. He knew me better than they did. It hurt when he chose her over me.
"I've been good.. I mean I'm breathing, it can't get any better than that!" I smiled
"that's nice" She smiled back
"So, this guy named.. Hayes? Yeah Hayes, stopped by to see you earlier today. Who is he?" Mom questioned
"Oh Hayes. He's a friend. He's my best friend actually. Did he say anything? " I asked
"No he just wanted to check up on you. He isn't bad looking you know.. I like his eyes" Mom said
"Me too." I said sighing
"You like him don't you?" Mom smirked
"Your crazy! He's just a friend, nothing more, nothing less." I loved having these types of conversations with my mom. She was pretty cool. I could talk to her about anything, and she wouldn't judge.
"Whatever. Speaking of um.. friends.. I saw Xavier's parents yesturday" She said stopping to look at me. She knew how hard Xavier's death was for me. Xavier died after Daddy. Xavier was there for me, while I wasn't .
"Oh that's nice" I said looking down at my feet, blinking away tears.
"Yeah. They do live in LA. They invited us to Xavier's Special Funeral Service.." Mom spoke as tears started spilling freely.
"I don't know mom.. I just.. I can't help but feel guilty." I sniffed
"Baby, you know it's not your fault. Xavier just happend to be at the wrong place at the wrong place." Mom said trying to consolidate me.
"It wasn't his fault mom. He-He didn't wanna be there either, I know I couldn't have stopped the jocks from beating him up, but I could have stopped them from killing him mom! I was there when they shot the gun.. I was there when Xavier was pleading for me to help him. Im such a selfish bastard!" I cried
"Okay. Okay. Calm Down. I'm sorry about bringing this up, I knew it was too soon. It was a stupid idea.-"
"I wanna go" I interrupted her.
"Are you sure? I don't wanna-"
"I wanna go" I said once again.
"Okay then. Start Packing, I'll look up plane tickets. The service is tomorrow but the earlier, the better."
mom said as i obeyed.
I rushed upstairs and checked my phone
'Hayes : Lynn Are You Okay?
Why aren't you answering?'
I sorta rolled my eyes. I was upset
' Hayes : Are you Mad?'
