ɮʊʀռ tɦɛ քʊʀքʟɛ ʀօsɛ. [asɦʟɛʏ ċaʍքɮɛʟʟ x ɦaռaɦaռҡɨ!ʄɛʍ!ʀɛaɖɛʀ]

Cough Up Those Petals Hun🎑☄

Warning: depression, self harm, cussing

Today is the day I'm being drived to school by.... Her. I didn't tell larry, because he would probably be furious, I left a note on my bed saying a Ashley was going to pick me up, so he's probably not gonna leave me for the whole school day. I had to leave early and wait outside because I dont want Larry finding out, nor mom.

I see Ashley's silver car pull up and she waves at me, I wave back.. But I cant ignore that feeling in my stomach. She gets out and runs over to hug me, and I hug back. All I could think is how stupid I am.

"Hey y/n! Ready to go?" Ashley says with a big toothy grin. I nod and get in the shiny car with her. Ashley starts the car, and as we pull out larry runs out of the apartments and sees me and Ashley. He runs towards the car but Ashley speeds away, leaving the angry larry. "Why was larry so mad? We leave without him all the time, haha" Ashley says

I just shrug "larry is a mystery, I'm not surprised" I said, giving her a fake smile. Why? One word, throat... How are you supposed to live with this pain? "Ash..?" I say. Ash returns with a 'hm' sound. "I really like this person... Girl... And... I was just wondering if you liked anyone?" I say.

Ashley blushes and looks down. "Y/n... I like y-" Ashley gets cut off by my phone ringing, and its.. Larry. Of course. "I'll tell you later, just answer the angry boi" Ashley says. I nod and answer the phone, and larry starts yelling into it.

"Y/n!! I didnt know if your aware, but I told you a while ago that ash is off limits. I dont have time for another death at the moment! mom is driving me, todd, and sal to school today and we made a pact, that when we get to school we are slapping you right in the face." Larry ends the call. And I can feel the gross petals rising slowly.

"what was that about? I heard a lot of screaming" Ashley says, pulling up to a parking space and turning the car off. I just shake my head and run into the school, leaving the confused Ashley alone.

I run into the bathrooms and start violently coughing pretty purple petals and thorns. vision goes blurry, and my throat gets teared up by the thorns of the rose. I can see blood, my gross blood, and the beautiful purple roses that taste like literal shit. I cant hear much, except ringing in my ear, and girls laughing behind my stall. After my episode, I clean up and run out of the bathroom, only to run into the four geeks. Todd, ash... Larry, and sal. "Hey y/n you ok?-" sal begins, but I run off.

I run out of the school and run home. I dont want to skip school, but do I really have a choice? Larry will give me shit when he decides to skip with sal. Which he always does. But honestly I dont care.. Being next to ash is a struggle.. And being alive is a struggle... I cant stay positive anymore and I'm done.

I run into my room and start cutting my wrists. Cut after cut after cut.. It burns. Just like throwing up petals. I want I to end, but the only thing that's holding me back is ash. She haunts me like every other thing I blame myself for.

Then... I hear larry and sal run in....

I was coughing a lot while writing this. Oof.
My only note: I love you and dont do anything that happened in this chapter please your the uwu in my lifeeeeeee
*slurp* 💜💜💜💜💜💜

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