I'm here. Sorta. I'd like to say this is an adventure, but so far, it's been an experience...
Today's lesson. If you date a dog of a man, no matter how much you love him, he's still gonna be a dog. Well... maybe not a dog. I actually like dogs.
Hmm...how about faithless addict asshole.
Yup. That's how it was. I gave him everything. Sacrificed many things, including who I was and he leaves me for his first love, only love. Meth whores. Wonderful.
He abandoned me in this freezing cold waste land. Literally and figuratively.
So. Now I get to see who I am and what I'm made of. For the first time, I am gonna take care of myself. I don't even know who myself is, anymore.
No more parasites. No more leeches. No more symbiotic relationships.
I'm gonna put God on my pedestal and try to be a faithful wife to Him. He's never done me wrong. He will walk beside me and never leave. Wish me luck!
Maybe someday he will guide my children back to me. Maybe let me hear their voice...
