In My Blood (Posie)

Mutual

I want you close to me. I want you close, I want you closer.

This had been what Josie had been dreaming of ever since she met the girl. She got to kiss the girl who she thought was way out of her league, she got to hold her, and she got to touch in ways nobody else can. Well... it was almost what she wanted. She couldn't do it in public. No matter how badly she wanted to pull the girl in close to her while she was hanging out with their friends, she couldn't. What hurt more was that they had to act like things were where Penelope was a cold-hearted bitch to Josie.

But when you're here with me, it's hard to tell just what you're after.

They didn't talk about what they were. Josie was told she had to end things with Rafael, and she did with no question. All Josie knew is that she doesn't want it to end so she just never brought it up. Penelope acted one way when they're together and nobody is watching, but when they were with their friends, she was acting boy-crazy. Josie started to question whether or not she's just being used as the "experiment" that girls do in college. She wondered if she's just a friend-with-benefits to her. She even went as far to wonder if this is just a bet that she made.

You say you want me all of today but tomorrow's not the same.

One day, they're sneaking around hooking up in one of the girls' rooms and Penelope makes Josie feel like the most special girl in the whole world. She makes her feel wanted and that the hiding from the world would only temporary. But then, the next day it's like it never even happened. Penelope would treat her like dirt at school and it's like she's back to square one and she just had a hopeless crush on the girl.

One time, Penelope was showing something on her phone to a friend when a message from Josie had popped up on the screen.

"Are you and Josie Saltzman like super close now or something?" Receiving a questioning look from her friend.

Penelope's heart spiked, "What? No! Not really. She's probably asking about an assignment for class." She reasoned.

Her friend seemed to buy the excuse, but Penelope's heart was still racing at the thought of being exposed. She was cold to Josie the rest of the day, whether they were around their friends or not. She even took it upon herself to start being seen with Jed, a boy from the wrestling team.

My feelings never change.

A few days after Penelope's scare, things had cooled down a bit yet the brunette still had yet to explain her actions to the brown eyed girl. The shorter girl acted like she hadn't been acting different the past few days and still invited Josie over to her house. Josie realized that she was really starting to like Penelope. Even though the hazel eyed girl had been hanging around Jed more often and getting a little too touchy for her taste, she still really liked the girl and it wasn't changing.

What do you want from me? What do you want?

Even after very much convincing and relentlessly persisting, Penelope would not let Josie take her out to a proper date. The young twin tried everything, suggesting that they'd go to a place far away from campus, leaving extra early in the morning so nobody would see them, or even taking two separate cars. Regardless, Penelope was set on her decision. They couldn't leave the comfort of their own homes. It was too risky in her mind. Josie was getting frustrated. She had so much love to give but the other brunette was resisting all of her efforts for it to go anywhere. She bottled it up inside, but she was ready to blow.

"What do you want from me?" The brown eyed girl exclaimed.

"What are you talking about?" Penelope responded, surprised from the girl's sudden outburst.