Hi, I'm Alex I'm female and I'm in grade 7, this is my story of depression and suicidal thoughts. When I was born I had the perfect family me my mom my dad and my sister Marl, but... as we grew older our parents began to fight, it got to the point where my dad got so mad he would get drunk and come home late yelling and throwing things. My dad was driving home from the bar one night and got in an accident because he was drunk, he didn't make it witch was really hard on my mom, at the time I was only 9 so didn't know what was going on, we had to move because mom couldn't pay the bills my sister and mom always fought and that was hard on me but enough explaining lets being
"Alex get your ass down here before I come up there!" mom yelled I hurried down so I wouldn't be late for my first day of grade 5, when I got down my mom said "leave now no breakfast or lunch your to fat is embarrassing" I left and got on the bus, the only good part of school is my bff Elisabeth and the girl I had a crush on she made me feel warm inside she was the most beautiful girl ever her name was Jamey she was popular and I was not so I wouldn't stand a chance with her I told my bff about it and she told every one I forgave her she didn't mean to, people say that they dont know why she's friends with me and I dont know why either I'm just an ugly fat annoying kid my mind takes over a lot of the time its full of thoughts that I cant get rid of, its hard to portend I'm ok, I saw Elizabeth a cross the yard " Elizabeth over here!!" I yelled she walked over to me and we waited together for the bell to ring we chose our seats then started class in class we did the same shit every day math, science, and writing but I had a hard time concentrating, the girl across from me kept talking and making fun of me with the other kids in my group, Shan is nice he's one of the nice boys, Danisha Is very mean she spreads roomers about me and makes fun of me I guess ill need to get used to it though there's nothing I can do, Liander might actually be worse then Danisha "bell rings" when I got home my mom was standing there and started yelling "I found you diary it said quote on quote I dont like being a girl I wish I could tell my mom but she would kill me she's always saying how transgender people are faggets and dont belong in this world so I cant tell her. how could you betray me." mom you dont understand I want to be a boy I'm depressed like this and I can be who I want so let me be me" latter that night she came in my room and put a blond fold on me and we got in the car she took it off and said she was gonna let me be who I wanted to be we were at the hair cutters I got my hair cut I a pixie cut and I was happy at home but at school things were the same people made fun of me more and still do but I still have my best friend Elizabeth.
(that's all for this chapter another one will come out soon)
