Forever Mistaken (on hold till the end of May)

Forever Mistaken

So this is  my new storyy..

Please tell me what you guys think...

Should I continue it or not??

Pic of Renee on side---->

Well, Enjoy(:

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Renee's POV:

         The blade fell to the floor as blood dripped down my wrist. I sighed as I closed my eyes and pressed the towel tighter around my wrist.  I picked the blade up off the floor as I walked back to my room and placed it under my mattress.

        I walked back to the bathroom in my room and set the towel down on the counter. I stared down at my new cut as it faded in along with the others. I shook my head lightly, clearing all my thoughts as I placed the many bracelets back on my wrist, hiding the cuts from the cruel world outside.

        This has now become my morning routine. Each day I wake up , and  I add a cut because I deserve it. I'm worthless, anorexic, a whore, just like my father use to tell me and just like everyone reminds me each day I go to school.

        I quickly changed into my dark skinny jeans and All Time Low tee before slipping on my black converse and heading downstairs. I threw my blonde hair into a sloppy ponytail on the way down. I smiled softly as I walked into the kitchen at my older brother, Derek, who was making breakfast.

         Derek had the same blonde hair and blue eyes as me, but he was definitely built better. He had muscles even though I barely ever saw him workout , it was quite strange actually. Ever since his sixteenth birthday he was always faster, and stronger . I never understood why.

        "Good morning" He said softly as he placed an egg on my plate. I grimaced slightly as I poked at it with my fork. 

        I looked up at my little brother, Jaimie, who was sitting across from me. He smiled up at me as he hobbled down his eggs. I laughed softly . He ate such like a pig, but yet stayed so little. 

          I looked back at Derek who was frowning at me. He knew about me being anorexic and I hated it. I had kept it a secret for so long , but it was obviously getting noticeable because I would always be losing weight and when anyone offered me food I would politely turn it down.

         Derek had sent me to a clinic where the people were always so rude. I would rather be fat than have to go there again. So, hesitantly, I scooped up an egg with my fork and brought it to my mouth. My eyes never once strayed away from Derek's as I chewed and then swallowed it.

         I tried to smile but it probably came out more as a grimace "Yum.." I spoke.

        Derek smiled, obviously proud of me. I glanced up at the clock which read exactly 7:05.  I sighed as I hopped off the kitchen seat and threw my food away. 

        "I have to go or else I will be late for the bus." I said as I grabbed my backpack. 

         I walked over to Jaimie and gave him a quick kiss on the cheek before walking over to Derek and doing the same.

       "Bye sissy!" Jaimie yelled as I walked out the door.

        Welcome to my life. My name is Renee Adams, I am seventeen and I am about to be eighteen in a month. I currently live with my two brothers. I know what you are thinking, why don't you live with your parents if you are still in high school? Well its simple, my mother died when I was ten, about seven years ago and as for my father well... let's just say he won't be winning the award for best dad anytime soon.