What is freedom (ROCIET Roman angst)

I'm so weak

"Why am I like this!" I screamed. I was on the floor having a mini panic attack. I was wearing my black sweater that said I'm trying my best.' I really was but I couldn't help it I have cut myself 15 times. THEY HATE YOU! The voices screamed. LOGAN THINKS YOUR ANNOYING PATTON PITYS YOU AND VIRGIL HATES YOU! The voices screamed. I couldn't take it anymore. I ran into a random sides room and banged on their door Deciet answered. "Roman?" "Make it stop make it stop!" I sobbed into his jacket. "Shh.." He hushed me He carefully took me into his room and sat me down on the bed. "Breathe Roman breathe..."
  "Tell me 5 things you can see." "You, the bed, the floor, your jacket, and the wall." I said. "Tell me 4 things you can hear." "The rain, your breathing, Panic At The Disco music, and the vents." "Two things you can taste." Salt, and tears.." "One thing you can touch." He finally said. "The sh-sheets.." I yawned as I fell asleep in his arms.

                    🌹 Deciet P.O.V 🌹
                   I'm just surprised Roman is female and had a panic attack how strange.. She softly snored in my arms I lied her down on my bed and covered her in blankets.
If I go to get her a drink of water what will the other sides think? I don't know why they don't like me maybe it's the way I dress I don't understand.... "D-Deciet?" Roman asked. "Shh.. Save your strength." I hushed him. "W-why?" He asked. "What do you mean?" "W-why d-did y-y-you h-help m-me." He stuttered. "Because your a good person."
"Oh..." She said not convinced. "I-I can get it..." She said as she tried to sit up only to fall back on the bed. "Yeah no.. I got it..." I insisted this is going to be a long and interesting day.. What led him I mean her into that panic attack anyway...