Alone

The Same Old Routine

Wake Up at 4am
Complete unfinished homework due that day
Get ready for zero period
Take dogs out
Pick up after dogs
Gather things in my backpack and drawstring
Get instrument
Leave house at 6:30am
Arrive to zero period at 6:35am
Go into the band room
Set my bags down and set up my instrument
Head to auditorium
Go into sectionals
Go back to band room for first period
Play as mass band
Get dismissed to get ready for second period
Walk across campus to go to geometry
Do classwork with my team
Bell rings and pack up for third period
Head to CAR Life
Buy snacks for fourth period
Work on my future life and career
Pack up for fourth period
Bells rings and head to the next building for french
Do my work and yell out answers randomly
Eat my snacks and not get in trouble
Get ready for lunch
Bell rings signaling lunch time
Eat with friends and head to PE
Change into PE clothes
Do whatever activity we're doing
Go to locker room and change clothes again
Leave for English
Try not to fall asleep but fail
Don't get caught sleeping
Get ready for school to end
3pm and school is over
Wait for brother to get out of school
Go home
Nap
Wake up
Eat
Shower
Brush my teeth
Do night routine
Stay up doing homework
Knock out while doing homework
Wake up at 4am

This is the cycle I repeat everyday, minor changes here and there but nonetheless always the same.

What I hate the most about this consistent schedule, is the fact that in half of it, I'm crying. There's never been a day that passes by where I'm not crying. Crying myself to sleep and having crap days one after the other.

No matter who I can rant to or tell what I'm feeling, I'm always alone at the end of the day.

Alone with nothing but my music, my tears, and my thoughts.