Bad Blood

3/13/19

Time is precious, but in its place,

why are you gone?

for the pain eats away

I am but a lost soul

But I don't want to live

for I may never say goodbye

-Jana Fares

I can't live anymore, I can't stand the life that I live,It is as if no one loves nor cares for me anymore. Quick bio.... my name is Tremaine Hardwick lll,I'm 17 years old and I'm a senior in Ben Fryer High School.. The pain that I suffer everyday hurts to much to be real.

Im not perfect, I'm not beautiful, nor am I normal. I feel presumably that people just want me dead, like I never even existed! Anyways the end of my time shall come sooner than later....

24 Hours before.....

"Mom hurry up I'm going to be late for school!" I start to walk out of the house when I notice that my neighbor, Ms. Johnson is watering her grass and I don't know why. By the time I arrive at school I see that my principal is talking to the guidance counselor Mr.Anderson I try to get a bit closer to hear what their talking about.

"Yeah I know i'll try to give him the usual talk about raising his grades in order to get into college." assured Mr.Anderson.

(Over intercom) "Tremaine Hardwick to the guidance office." As I walk towards the guidance office I get the urge to get Subway so I pull out my phone and order some Subway, it says it will be here in 15 minutes.

"So you wanted to see me?" I exclaimed. "Yes have a seat Tremaine." I make myself pretty comfortable as if Mr.Anderson wasn't around. "I have heard that your grades aren't doing to well, can you tell me what's causing this to happen?"

He sounded pretty interested to know what's happening so I said,

"Oh um you know teenagers like me can't even get a job at McDonalds so what makes you think that I would get good grades!"

"Tremaine do you even care about going to college?" Oh man that question hit me hard I kind of felt embarrassed but who cares so I said "Ehhhhh college isn't what I really want...listen Mr.Anderson I don't have time for this so I should get going now the Subway dude is outside waiting for me to pay him so that he could get on with his day!" I sprint outside to go get my food and the delivery guy is just death staring me with his eyes which seem to look black but I don't even know what I'm looking at right now.

"15 MINUTES DID YOU KNOW I HAVE A JOB AND YOU'RE WASTING MY TIME RIGHT NOW!" And he just went on yelling and yelling.... "Well you're total is $17.95."

"WHAT I THOUGHT ITS $10.55!?!?"

Anyways I payed him $17.95 and I went back to class. I start to eat my sandwich you know just enjoying it getting a good feel of that italian beef and spinach THEN Jimmy Douglas just snatches it from my hands and takes a HUGE bite as if it was his sandwich.

"HEY that's my sandwich!" I try to take back my sandwich but Jimmy is holding on tightly. "NO THIS IS MINE!!!!!!!".......... A fast background about Jimmy..... (sighhhhh) Jimmy and I were best friends since 1st grade until the end of 8th grade when he made new friends and I was the loser like always then my life went downhill.

I've always tried to make new friends but for some reason I can't,I guess you can call me the odd one out? My mom says its because I don't talk to people or Im a "meanie weenie?" whatever that means. I want friends I really do its just,I feel like people just really don't like me.  

3/14/19

lets see