My only hope.

Chapter 2

" Mrs Blake, I need to have a word with you. Would you mind waiting for me in the hallway? I'll be there in a minute. " asked Dr. Phillip.

" Yeah, sure. " i replied him with a little sadness on my face.

        He went back into the room and as soon as he turned around, I knew he wanted to tell me a bad news about Thomas. Tears started to roll down my cheeks. I walk straight to the hallway and started thinking about Thomas. I felt like a stupid woman walking towards the hallway and started crying without knowing about the news yet.

" Fuck! You bloody hell! Look at what you've done. Such a bitch. " an old man fell down from his wheelchair and accidentally hit a young woman who was carrying a bunch of freshly brewed coffee. The coffee spilled on his bald head and he started scolding me and vulgar at me loudly without thinking that he was in the hospital in the first place to talk such language. I was so embarrassed that I didn't even appologize to him and ran to the hallway.

" Mrs Blake, you'd better appologize to the old man. His head is swollen, so as his knees. " said Dr. Phillip.

" I don't know what happened, Doc. I was thinking about Tom's state and all of a sudden I heard him vulgar at me loudly. I wasn't aware of anything in the first place and felt embarrassed, that's why I ran away. " my face started showing that i was guilty.

" Let's just move on, shall we? I wanted to tell you that Thomas was in a really bad condition. I'm really sorry. Remember we told you last week that he has only 18 months to live? Unfortunately, he have only 30% to live. His health condition is really bad, Mrs Blake. I'm afraid he have to stay here for couple of weeks just to make sure that he is in safe hands. So, is it okay if you leave him here with us? You can visit him of course but we won't let you visit him often. " explained Dr. Phillip.

" Why? What exactly happened to him, Doc? I took care of him day and night. I gave him his meds and make him eat healthy food. Now what? Are you telling me that I'm not able to take care of him? Doc, I'm his mom. I don't want anyone else to take care of him except for me. If I allow you to take good care of him in here, I have the rights to come here and visit him daily. "

" Mrs Blake, you don't understand. It's not that we don't allow you to take care of him. Just that we know how to deal with his health. You can't visit him as often because there are days we might want him to be alone and make him have a good rest. "

" I know I'm not a doctor but you can just tell me what to do. " I demanded him.

" Mrs Blake, please. Its just for a couple of weeks. I'll make a schedule for you when to come, okay? " said Dr. Phillip.

" If you insist. But could you make the schedule as often? Could you try? " I asked desperately.

" I'll try " he smiled and walk away.

             Today, I'll be alone at home. No Thomas, no Belle. Just me. I was having a hard time sleeping. I kept on looking into Thomas room as if he was in there and I was looking after him. It was only hours I left him in the hospital but it felt like days. I can't live without Thomas for a day. Worse if it is for couple of weeks!

Ring ring... ring ring.... The phone rang. I ran towards it, hoping that it was Dr Phillip calling to tell me that I can take Thomas back home tomorrow morning.

" Hello? Is this Mia? Mia. I heard that Thomas was having leukaemia and his condition was really bad. How could that happen? "

          I kept quiet for a while. I recognize the person's voice. It was Richard. I couldn't talk. I was standing still. My heart was beating fast as if I was having a heart attack. I cried.

" Richard, where have you been? Oh my. Richard, I missed you. Why did you leave me? Have I done anything wrong towards you? " i cried non stop.

" Mia, calm down please. I called you to ask about my son's state. Its over, Mia. Its been 4 years. Lets just forget about it. Thomas is still my son and I have the rights to know about his health's state. "

" Richard, the doctor told me that the probability that Thomas could live is only 30%. Right now, he is in the hospital. The doctor told me that he will be there for couple of weeks. "

" Oh my, I'm so sorry, Mia. What about Belle, then? I missed her so much. Can I talk to her for a while? " asked Richard.

" Richard, *sobs* Belle... Belle... erm.. " I hesitated.

" What? What is it Mia? Talk to me. " Richard demanded.

" Belle passed away 3 weeks ago. She got hit by a truck that carries oil. The oil spill and the fire burnt her. " I said while crying so badly.

" What?! Mia, I knew from the start that you won't be able to take care of my children. Now, because of you, they left. " shouted Richard angrily.

" Maybe it was really my fault. But I swear, Richard, I didn't know that this is going to happen. "

" I need to visit my son. "

" I'm afraid not. Dr Phillip told me that tomorrow he is not allowing anyone to come and visit Thomas. "

" When can I visit him, then? " asked Richard desperately.

" 2 days from now. I have the schedule with me. "

" Well okay, call me back 2 days from now. I have something for him. Goodbye, Mia. Rest well. Don't think too much. You have my support. " he put down the phone.

           Can't believe he still cared about his children. I can't believe he supported me. I really wish he could come back to me. God, help me. He didn't know how much i needed him right now. If only he came back and stay with me for a little while. I want my family back. But, I can't have Belle. She is in peace now. I really miss her, so much. Maybe a little too much.