Arranged marriage

||Broken||

Nandini's Pov:

Dear Dairy,

I always wanted my HUSBAND to be a romantic person, the one who will love me like im his price possession, the one who can die for me, the one who cant live without me, the one who will say I LOVE YOU in every ten minutes, who would take me on romantic dates, who would take me on long drive at night... No Money, No Big Cars, No Designer Dresses, nothing.... Only Love From My Husband..

But i never got what i wanted since childhood so how can i expect that aiyappa would give me these things now. From the day i got married till now manik only uses me inspite of him being  like this my silly Heart Loves him.... I'm hurt and broken beyond repair i had stopped crying since the day i got to know that he was forced in this marriage by mom.. I have been talking very less with mom too because she did wrong with not only him but with me too... Where i was at fault... Dreaming a romantic and loving husband was my fault??  or expecting a little happiness from my husband was my fault or expecting too much from my destiny was my fault?

"NANDINI
NANDINI COME DOWN"

i heard mom calling me downstairs i looked at the clock it was 8pm i saw outside the window the stars were shining everywhere in the sky it was a full moon day today cold breeze came from the window and my hairs started waving i went to the balcony and i wished manik was here in this romantic weather with me in this balcony back hugging me saying sweet nothings in my ear... But it will always be in my dreams...

i went downstairs to see mom but she was not in the living room i went in the kitchen saw mom making something

"Mom what are you making tell me ill make it u take some rest" i said to her but she shook her head and said " No dear i will make it its been long since i have made something as you dont let me work"  " let me at least help you" i said to which she nodded in positive when the dinner  was done i asked her why she called me she said " Manik is coming back today from his 1 month long trip so that is why i called u so that u get ready for manik..." i was just numb in my place it has been one month since cabir told me about the marriage being forced on him by mom i was standing there like a statue when mom shook me and asked what happend i said nothing mom said " He must be reaching here any time now go and get ready for your husband.." i nodded my head and went upstairs closed the door went towards my cupboard took some random dress to wear as i know he won't notice me whatever i wear.. he has not even talked to me properly.... Sighing i went in the bathroom to get shower..

when i came out still drying my hair with the towel i saw him he was  lying on the bed with closed eyes his hairs were wet means he took shower in the guest room.... He looks so handsome and so innocent while sleeping who would say that this innocent face has a MONSTER HIDDEN INSIDE... I so wanted to feel the softness of his hair.. he never let me touch him while doing that thing too...

There was a knock on the door and with that he was awake now he looked at me and i saw something in his eyes which i cant explain what it was our eye staring contest stopped by the knock again and he went to open the door...  the person who was knocking was cabir we didnt talked since the day he said me the truth i kind of avoided him so that i dont lash out my anger on him... he was here to call us for dinner manik nodded and looked at me and went out with cabir i sighed i know he won't wait for me on dinning table i wish he could take me with him and say lets eat together...

i went down and saw as usual mom and cabir waiting for me but my one and only husband eating without paying attention on me... i ate my dinner very less as i was not in a mood to eat anything...  he finished his dinner and went upstairs i followed him as i was done too.... I went in my room and saw him coming out of the bathroom wiping his face with the towel... I walked towards the closet of mine to get my night suit and i went in the bathroom brushed my teeth washed my face and changed in the night suit..

I came out of the bathroom to see manik sitting on the bed doing something in his phone i walked towards my side and was about to sleep but one hand stopped me I looked at the source it was manik as he was holding my wrist he pulled me below him and i knew what he wanted from me now it has been one month we haven't done "that" thing and i know he must be lusting me now as my night suit is a bit revealing...

He started kissing my neck while holding my both hands in his clutching it tightly as he don't like me touching him.. When first he used to do "THAT"to me i used to feel that maybe this is the way he shows that he loves me but from the day i got to know about the truth i started feeling disgusting about myself as I'm nothing but a toy to him with whom he can do whatever he wants to do...

I don't know when we were in the blanket but i came out of my trance when he entered inside me suddenly with a jerk and he started groaning my name in pleasure... It was painful for me no pleasure no love in this... Pain, Only Pain...
He didn't cared about how I would take him in me he should've been slow but he is the monster who don't have a heart who don't know the meaning of Love he just know how to Fuck not to Love

When he was finished with his pleasure he came in me with each thrust i was feeling my inside clenching and i came with him with no feeling inside me of pleasure but the feeling of Pain that my husband only wants one thing and that is my body to satisfy his manly needs...

He came out of me and i hissed in pain while him doing "That" thing i was not allowed to moan or even make any noise it will be only him who would make noise if i make noise or moan he would be a BEAST and Literally would punish me hard.. He shifted towards his side and slept and I shifted to my side with a BROKEN HEART AND SOUL.....