International Stardom (BTS Spanking story)

Grammys {all} pt.5/5

TXT debuted!!! Is it TXT or Tomorrow x Together? I type in TXT in my music library and it doesn't work, but it works for Tomorrow x Together?

I don't know where I'm going with this 🤷‍♀️

Love ya bunches 🌹

// RM's POV //

I watched The Great Gatsby last night and it made me miss California easily.

It made me wonder if there was any way that I could escape our dorm and go back into the sunshine, the freedom that I wish I could have. 

It is exactly 1:00 am and I'm sitting at my desk, thinking.

Thinking about what happened at the Grammys and the drunk jackass who nearly attacked my maknae.

Lil Pump. Is that what I'm going to turn into?

I would never allow my members to become that way, but what about me?

What if I fall in love with money?

No amount of money is worth disrespect, none.

I think that's why I cried when the CEO of BigHit called me and really gave it to me.

On the airplane back home, the maknaes were terrified of coming back and facing the company. Them crying made me emotional and I swore that as the leader, I will handle the scolding. My hyungs hated that idea, because it wasn't all my fault. I just told them that we will all be punished for what we did, but I have to do it to explain exactly what happened.

We were so close to being fired, that's what he told me. He screamed that my behavior was unacceptable and childish. I cried but I took it, I sat on the chair in front of his desk and allowed him to scold me harshly. He said that the staff will be monitoring our behavior until he is confident that we hyungs act like adults again.

The worst part was what I had to do.

He told me that I have to punish ALL my members, and I have to punish them well. He explained that I have to use objects like paddles, switches, and belts.

I almost fainted.

I pleaded him not to force me to use anything besides my hand: Jungkook isn't used to the belt yet, Taehyung could only take so much and the way Jimin screams makes my soul shatter.

Fortunately, after many hours of us arguing he agreed to not make me do that and just use my hand, but he said it had to be a lot.

I've never been a good disciplinarian; I could take a punishment but not give it. The first year that we were a group it was only me that punished the maknaes. Jin handled Suga, Hoseok, and I but it was my job the discipline the younger members.

The first three months were brutal, and I cried every time I had to punish them. After that though I got used to it; the three kids and I developed a very beautiful friendship where they respected me and I respected them.

When all seven of us got incredibly close, that's when  my hyungs started punishing the younger ones. I think that's when that became awful for me, they developed a fear for Yoongi and Hoseok's punishments and Jin and I were the relief.

I had a younger sister that I punished growing up whereas Yoongi and Hoseok were the punishees with strict fathers and older siblings.

To conclude my Ted Talk, it fucking sucks being a hyung sometimes.

My mind is begging for rest but I won't grant it because I was addicted to the quiet. I breathed deeply thinking about what I have to do later in the morning.