My only hope.

Chapter 3

        The alarm woke me up. All of a sudden I remembered about last night. Richard wanted to see Thomas. Oh my. I forgot to tell him that Thomas don't know him and he thought that his father had passed away.

    

        " Richard, sorry but I don't think you can come down and visit Thomas. " I phoned him as soon as I realize.

        " Why not? Is there anything wrong? Are you afraid I might take him away from you? " asked Richard angrily.

         " No! It's just that, Thomas don't know who you are. I told him that you died 4 years ago in an accident. " I explained to him with guilt.

         I felt sorry for him. Now, Thomas will think that he is going to go to heaven to see his dad and Belle and stay with them forever. I'm scared if everything goes wrong after this and Thomas will think I'm a liar and he is going to hate me because Thomas hate liars. He will feel offended when someone lied to him. What am I suppose to tell Thomas? Richard really wants to visit him. He longed to see him and hug him and talk to him like normal dads do.

             " How could you? Why must you lie to that poor boy? " he asked.

             " I'm really sorry. I am afraid he couldn't accept it and he would hate you. He is too young to understand, Richard. "

             Things never go well between Richard and I. We often fight because of small things too. Little did he know that I was still waiting for him to come back to me like he used to before I gave birth to Thomas. Things went well until one day. That day was the saddest day of my life and I couldn't forget about it.

4 years ago...

             Belle, Richard and I went to Hawaii for a holiday. We spent time together there. We went there to celebrate our 10th Anniversary. At that point of time I was still having Thomas. It was a memorable day until something ruin it. Richard's phone was ringing and I have to answer the call as Richard forgot to bring his phone with him that night. He went to the nearest store to grab some stuff. He rushing till he forgot to bring the phone along. I then answered the phone. I heard a young woman's voice.

               " Hi sweetheart. I missed you so much. When will you come back? Maria and I really missed you. She kept asking me to call her father. " said the woman.

               " Hi, I think you got the wrong number. Who are you? Where did you get this number from? " I shouted at her.

               " I'm Cynthia. Who is this? Isn't this Richard's number? How could I get my husband's number wrong? " the woman shouted back.

               " I'm Richard's wife. Excuse me, bitch. I don't know exactly who you are but why are you telling me that you're my husband's wife? And who the fuck is Maria? " I asked her impatiently.

                " Who are you calling me a bitch? You asshole. Maria is my daughter. Richard and I have been together for 2 years. " she answered rudely.

              I quickly put down the phone and wipe my tears of my cheeks. I knew that Richard is just infront of the door. As soon as he came in, I acted as if nothing happen. I asked him what took him so long.

             That same night, I couldn't sleep, thinking of Cynthia and Richard's relationship. How could I not know about them? Can't believe he cheated on my behind my back for 2 years. Next 3 days after the holiday, I heard Richard answering his phone call.

            " Hey dear. Why are you calling me? It's late already. My wife will be awake soon. Yes yes, I'll go home tomorrow. I promise you. Bye honey. Sweetdreams. Love you. " he talked softly so that I won't heard him talking over the phone.

          When he put down the phone, I got up the bed and ask him who's Cynthia. He tried to lie by saying that Cynthia works for him. He is his secretary. I kept on asking him questions and made him annoyed. I got the urge of telling him that I've already found out everything. Couple of days later, I told him that I know about his relationship with Cynthia. He scolded me and slapped me on the face. He told me to mind my own business and walk away. He sweared that he won't be coming home again and he would divorce with me. He confessed that he doesn't have feelings for me any longer because he thought that he found a 'new' one. I wasn't the luckiest person on Earth. He left me when Thomas was just 4 months in my womb. Belle was just 10 years old. It was a heartbreaking moment. Whenever I see him, the situation came back in mind. I started remembering things again. For 4 years I was having a hard time. If only Cynthia doesn't exist. I would have Richard only for me.