Myungsoo lost everything, he has no one who supports him and no one who'll help him to process what happened.
Therefore he wants nothing more than to be with his best friends and particularly his boyfriend again.
But those are dead.
However, what if...
First of all, english is not my first language. So if there are any grammar or logic errors please don't judge me. In addition, I want you to know that I added some phrases and I really hope you like it. I also hope that you will leave comments behind.
As always in the last few months, I sat in front of my window, free of any emotions. It's dark and really cold outside, because it's winter right now. But I didn't notice it and it doesn't matter to me any more. For a long time now I'm not interested in anything anymore. I just sat there and starred out of the window like every night, with only one wish. That I finally will die. For me, there is no sense in life any more. My best friends and the love of my life are dead.
They died in a car accident. And if I weren't at a stupid business lunch with my parent at that time, I would be with them now. I could be happy with them. Have fun with my friends and most of all, I could be with my boyfriend again.
I felt a tear roll down my cheek. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the silence of my room. Until a faint scratch on my room door got my attention. I stood up and walked to my door.
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When I opened the door, Byeol was standing in front of me and looked at me with big eyes. She meowed, which made me smile. I squatted down and took her in my arms. Immediately she snuggled up to me and began to purr. I closed the door and sat in front of the window again. Again I looked outside and lost myself deep in thoughts. Dreamily I stroked her soft fur and eventually fell asleep, because of her soft and calming purr.
When I woke up the next morning I looked around for a moment, then I glanced at my lap where I saw my cat. She was sleeping peacefully and purred quietly. I started smiling lightly, which became rarely in the last months. There is just no reason to do it anymore.
Even if everyone around me tries to cheer me up, I still feel alone. My parents don't understand me and say I should find new friends. I should find myself a decent Partner, of course a girlfriend. They also force me to go see a psychologist. But the only thing I was doing there was to sit and stare at the walls, till the time was over. I don't listen to the psychologist, because I'm not interested in it. I just want to be alone, but no one understands it.
They say I need to go out again, so that I'll get over it. But no one of them can see how I really feel. No one can see, that I don't want to get over it, I just want to be with them. I want to lay in Sunggyu Hyungs arms again, snuggle against him and kiss him.
