As a kid I was "perfect"... I had the best grades, I was always in the spelling bees, and I was never confused by anything.. Well, now I'm confused about everything.. I don't even know who I am anymore.. I remember being young without a care in the world but now I am scared of everything.. Even if something has like a 0.000000003% chance of going wrong, I won't do it. I used to love being the center of attention but now I can't stand having more than 5 people looking at me. In elementary school everyone knew me, I was Ashtynn Sparks, the smart girl, the teacher's pet, the great runner.... But now I guess moving has changed everything, no one knows me except for a small group of people and even at that I feel like I'm slowly losing my friends. I can just feel it.. I feel like somehow everyone is against me, even though I know for a fact that they're not..
I wish it would just all stop, I wish I could stop, stop everything, stop being so.. Confused...
A/N Hai peoples of the interwebs! This is basically gonna be a story of my life, starting with 7th grade. It's mostly true, I'll probably tell you if I make something up soooo yeah! Anywayyy hope you enjoy my f*cked up life!
