My only hope.

Chapter 5

              Why do I keep on thinking of Dr Phillip? Why am I smiling to myself for no reason? Oh my god. Don't tell me I'm falling in love with Dr Phillip? No. No!! I can't. Stop. Does this mean I can finally move on and start having a new one? Maybe Dr Phillip is the right choice. Even Thomas want him as his father. I should really be close to him. Wait. What about his wife? Oh no. I don't want to break his family relationship. Who knows he have many children and he really love his wife? Maybe I shall talk to him about his family tomorrow. Yeah, I should.

             The next morning, I quickly take a shower, put on my best clothing and drive off to the hospital.

" Good morning, Mrs Blake. I'm afraid you can't see your son for the moment. He is sleeping right now. He really need a rest. Last night he fell down and hit his head. Sorry we didn't inform you. We didn't want you to come down here at 1 am. I'm afraid you didn't have enough rest. " he said.

" What? Oh dear. Why? How did that happen? " I asked him. Forcing him to reply me in detailed. I was like a private investigator. I kept on asking about my son again and again.

" Calm down, Mia. Thomas is okay. He just needed some rest. " he hold my shoulders and pulled me towards him and hugged me tightly. I felt the love. All of a sudden my body just pushed him away. I knew right this second that I'm falling in love with him but I fucking have to get away from him. Maybe I couldn't.

" Doc, can I ask you a question? " I asked.

" Yeah, sure. Anything for you. " he said.

" Do you still have a wife and any other children? "

" My wife left me for some other guy. My only child is Stephen. He was the one who died due to leukemia. Now, I live by myself. " he said with sorrow.

" Do you still love your wife? " I asked him.

" Wow. Why ask lots of questions huh? " he smirked.

" No, I'm just curious. " I fold my arms ans bit my lips.

             It seems like he don't want to answer my last question. Maybe he still have feelings left for his ex-wife. I'm not sure.

" Lets have coffee. " He said.

" I'm sorry but I don't drink coffee. "

" Okay then, perhaps some tea might do? " he asked.

" Why not? "

             We went down the hallway and took the lift to the cafe. I ordered tea while he ordered coffee. We talked and talked. All of a sudden he ask me a question about Richard.

" What about your husband? Is he still around? I don't see him visitting Tom, tho'. "

" We divorced when Thomas was only 4 months. "

" I'm sorry. Do you have other children besides Tom? " he asked more.

" Yeah, Belle. "

" Where is she then? I would like to meet her. "

" You can't. "

" Why not? She doesn't go out often? "

" No. She is not around. "

" Where did she go? "

" She died last 3 weeks. " my eyes started to collect tears.

" I'm so sorry. I didn't know. Thomas didn't told me that he had a sister. " he held my hand and wipe my tears off.

" It's okay. It's just that I really miss her. "

" How old is she? "

" 14. "

" Dr Phillip, we need your help. " a nurse came to us and ask Dr Phillip to follow her.

" What is it, Sam? " he asked her.

" Faith. Her lungs are not working. This is an emergency. " she told him with panick.

              For a second, I thought she came to tell Phillip about Thomas. I was relieved but was worried about Faith. Faith is a 6 year old. She is in the same ward as Thomas. She had cancer. She seldom wake up. No one visit her. She is a beautiful angel but I'm sure if she has hair, she will be more beautiful then she is now. I've ever talked to her and asked her about her mom. She is a really sweet little girl. Her mom is not in town. Her mom is busy with something else back in California. I pitied her. Why didn't her mother take time to visit her daughter? Poor little Faith.

            After checking after Faith, Phillip went outside to look for me. He told me that Faith and Thomas is doing fine. That was a relief.

" What happens if Tom left you? " Phillip ask.

" Don't say that doc, I'm sure he will be fine. You're my only hope that could make him regain his strength. "

" Just call me Phillip. Don't have to be so formal. And what do you mean by I'm your only hope? "

" Well, you see, you took care of my son like as if he is your son too. You gave him the very best. He is really happy. Before he met you, he isn't as happy as now. He hardly eat, play, talk, laugh and smile. He always wonder around like he is lost is some kind of world. " I told him honestly.

" Well, he just need a father. " he replied.

" Why? I can be both a mother and father. "

" You don't understand, Mia. He need a man to support him and at the same time he need you. " he explained.

" Where can I find him a father? "

" I can be his father if you don't mind, Mia. Until he recover. "

" Thankyou so much, Phillip. I owe you alot. "

" It's nothing. No big deal. " he smiled.