You're the reason...| A Jack Duff FanFiction

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"Leave..." He whispered. The guilt and anger was mixed in his voice. "Excuse me?" Shocked. That's all I felt. Shocked, that he had the audacity to lie in my bed with another woman, and not any woman, my mum! The betrayal was like a burning sensation right in the pit of your stomach, rising slowly, majestically turning into anger as it boils. "Leave, I don't want this to go any further." That's all I had to hear. He chose her over me, and that's all I needed for me to know my place. I knew this had been going on for a while behind my back, I didn't give in to it because it never happened in my home, he always went out. But not this time, no, this time it's time for me to go. "Fine! I'll go. Just cover yourselves while I get my things." I announced. I swiftly reached under my bed and grasped onto the handle of my gym bag, it should be enough to fit some clothes in until I come back.

By the time I had gathered enough clothes there was a bored expression etched on both of their faces, the guilt was ridden of in less than five minutes. I hadn't even left yet and I could already see his had sexually rubbing the inside of her thigh under the covers. "Don't worry. I'm gone now. We're over and you're both dead to me." I said calmly as I slung the large handle over my shoulder and made my way down the stairs. They were giggling and already fumbling about, but I didn't care anymore. It's time I sort myself out before trying to sort everyone else.

I pull my phone out of my pocket and dial a number while walking down the street. It took two rings before they answered. "Hello?" The deep voice beckoned through the phone. A comforting voice, one that used to calm me through thunder and one that used to hum to get me to sleep at night when my mother was busy with a man of the night, or completely of her face on a drug she had never even heard of. "I need a place to stay. She did it again." I heard a sigh come from the other end. I was a burden to him. But he was my brother, he never said no. "Where are you?" He questioned, my answer was quick as I was happier now I knew I had somewhere to go. "37 maybell, near gramps old shop." I exclaimed. The call ended and I knew he was on his way. I saidq on the curb, my knees up to my chest and my mind fogged with a million thoughts running wild, no coordination, no order, no process. It was hard to deal with so I put my head in my hands and closed my eyes.

I don't know how long I waited as I lost track of time, I zoned out and stared at the concrete beneath me, drawing small characters in the dusty soil, a beep of a car horn brought me from my thoughts. I climbed into the SUV and we drove off to my brothers house. "Thank you Khalil." I whispered. My voice broke and that's when his head turned towards me. The hurt was evident, I didn't want it to be. I wanted to feel strong, I was fed to seem strong. I didn't want to be one of those sad little girls that runs off for help every time a boy hurts her feeling. I wanted so bad, to just forget about them both, but it wasn't so easy. All of a sudden I felt my brother wipe my cheek with the pad of his thumb. "You know I'm always here for you, now whatever pain life brings that devil having ass bitch, she deserves it. You will not help her anymore. Especially not when she has hurt you. Again. Don't forgive her this time. You have me, and you always will." I didn't realise I was crying until a sob spluttered from my lips and small droplets of water rained from my eye. I knew I could let it out in-front of Khalil, he won't mind. "I want to be independent, I don't want to be weak." I sobbed.

"Crying doesn't make you weak O. It makes you human. You need to cry every once in a while and you don't have to be ashamed of it, you're human." And with that he planted a kiss on the top of my head and we drove on, he had pulled over to the side of the road while we were talking. He is the best thing that could of ever happened to me, and nobody will ever come before my brother. That's how it has always been, that's how it will always be.

20/02/18