My only hope.

Chapter 6

" Mia, it's been weeks we talk and spend time together in the hospital. I called you to confess my feelings for you. It's okay if you don't like me, I will just go away. Maybe you still have feelings for your ex-husband. " Phillip called me at about 1.30 a.m. .

" Phillip. I've longed to tell you that I loved you too but what about Thomas? "

" We can work things out together. "

            Can't believe he confessed. Am I too old to re-marry? I'm just 34. Turning 35 in 2 months. Phillip is a year older. I believe he would be a great dad for Thomas and a great husband for me. Better than that douchebag, Richard. From just beimg friends with Phillip, I can see that he is a truthful guy and I trusted him alot. I'm comfortable around him. He is the only one that could stand my nonsense and could bare with my fucking attitude. Today, I can't visit Thomas. I can't meet Phillip too. He is busy. Thomas is going to have another chemotherapy. Hmm, what shall I do today? I've been worried sick about my son and I've been hiding feelings for Phillip. I'm glad I could forget about my feelings towards Richard. Hope he have a good time with Cynthia and his 6 year old daughter, Maria.

         I do love Phillip but I still have tiny feelings left for Richard. Richard is actually a good guy but I guess i will have to totally move on. He has his own family now, he doesn't need me anymore. I'm nothing but a stupid woman for trusting a douchebag like him. I kinda feel like I'm a fucking retard sometimes. At the same time, I'm glad I met Phillip. A day without seeing Thomas and Phillip, it feels like a day with disaster.

Ring... ring..

" Yes, hello? "

" Mia? "

" Yes, Richard. What is it? "

" I really need to see Thomas. "

" You can't. Don't you understand? He doesn't need you! He is doing fine now. I don't want my son's health worsen because of you. "

" How dare you talk to me like that! "

" I could. Why would you give a fuck about him? If you loved him, you wouldn't have left him. "

" STOP FUCKING TALK ABOUT THAT, WILL YOU?! "

" It's true, Richard. Why would you give a damn about him after all these years? If you visit him, he would ask you to go away. He won't recognize you. He don't even know who the fuck is Richard! "

 

               He put down the phone. He was really angry but what I told him is a fact. He wouldn't have left his family if he loved them. Am I right? What a jerk. After these 4 years then he came running back to ask about his son? I'm the one who took care of Thomas since he was born. Thomas doesn't have a father during these few years of growing. He only need Phillip. So do I.