Goodbye Agony

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Finally, I get so see my old friends. It's literally been 5 years since I've seen them and I honestly can't wait. Last time I went up here I was 12 I'm now 17 and I wonder how much they've changed. Yeah I follow some of them on social media but I never really see anything they post so I don't know anything about them anymore really.  It's a two hour drive so I have a load of cd's that I could play so I'm gonna be entertained for a while, I'm also gonna have to listen to my younger brother Owen moan about how far away it is. The first one I put in is Elvis, you always gotta start with a bit of Elvis; then moving onto people like AC/DC, Queen, meatloaf and so on. Welp this is gonna be a long drive.

Maybe I should tell you my life story so you have a better idea who I am. My names Winter I'm 17 and living with my mum my older brother Elijah  my younger brother Nate my younger sister Rebecca and then the youngest out of us all is jack. I'm constantly working and don't have time to do the things that I love for example: drawing I love to draw and it takes me away from real life for a few hours and it's pure bliss. We recently moved out from my step dads house because he was abusive to me and my other siblings and he would always treat us like slaves most of the time, it wasn't a nice place to live in so we moved up to my grandads. Living up there isn't easy either there's only 4 bedrooms with 10 people living in the house. It's not good. Ever since we moved out my mum has no one to argue with or no one to blame so she always blames me for her mistakes, then it causes an argument and we're shouting and screaming at each other and it really puts me down. I have the kids (Rebecca and jack) 24/7 Rebecca is 7 and jack is 6, and if I ever want to go out I have to ask "have I got the kids because I want to go out with friends" but her response is always the same "fine you'll leave me to deal with the kids, don't you worry I work 24/7 and this is the thanks I get" or something like that, she always has a way to put me down. A year ago I stopped self harming after doing it for over a year and a half, nobody ever noticed it which is a good thing. My brother
Nate he self harmed at school and the teachers caught him so he then had to be rushed to see a doctor. He's doing it for attention, he told me that. Somethings not right with him. We don't know what it is but we know there's something wrong with him. He hasn't been diagnosed with depression the doctors said he was fine, which he is. And now that's causing so many arguments and it's not a very pleasant topic to discuss.

I'm almost there just 4 more miles then I would arrive at my childhood place. I always know that because whenever I see the scratchies it's 4 miles. The scratchies are broken, rusted abounded caravans up on the mountain. My grandma said to me when I was young "thats where were staying" and I said "I am definitely not staying in those scratchies" and it's stuck ever since.

I'm just about to enter and I can already see some old friends. I parked my car at the cabin I got out and ran up to Kieran we all call him kiwi because Lexi couldn't say his name right so she came up with the name kiwi for him and it's stuck ever since. I ran up to him giving him the biggest hug we were like that for 5 minuets. I've missed him so much but god since when was he so hot like damn. I then saw Yusuf and Lexi they ran up to me giving me a hug I've missed them so much and Yusuf has changed so much, he's taller, got a deeper voice he's looking good. Lexi hugged me shes grown so much. We were all catching up on things, Yusuf and I are the same age and Lexi is Nate's age and kiwi is 19

" hey do you guys want to come back to mine to have a drink?" kiwi asked smiling at us
"Yeah sure why not" I said, who doesn't love a good drink though?
"Yeah I'm down for that but it's literally 2 o'clock" Yusuf said
"You're point being?"I questioned
"What about them two? " kiwi said pointing at Lexi and Nate
"I'm sure a can or two wouldn't hurt them" I said I mean they are 13 so 1 can wouldn't hurt them
"Alright lets go then" kiwi said as he started walking towards his cabin

I was at the back of the group strolling behind them, kiwi started to slow down so he could be by my side. "So umm... how's things been?" Kiwi asked me and honestly I don't know how to answer that so I said it been fine. "So...is there anyone special in your life?" Hahah no. "Aha no, what about you?" I'm hoping he'll also say no "nah there's nobody" he said shaking his head. Thank god.  "I can't believe how much you've grown last time I saw you, you were this big" he put his hand down to his hips to say I was that height which is an over exaggeration. "No I was not I was way taller than that!" I laughed telling him, he laughed too. He has such a cute smile, I watch him smiling and for once I genuinely smiled like i wasn't faking it this is a real smile.