use your words- a poetry collection

magic in the air

magic in the air

your cheeks turn red as I stare

December's embers glowing above our heads

time like molasses helps us abolish our dread

are you certain you're still hurting 

when you catch the wisp of my ghost

I guess I'm not alone 

in holding on to false hope

I hope you two are happy

but not like when you had me

she's got a hold of your soul

ran off and took my key

I've read between the lines

so tell your girl I hope she's fine

I'm not too dumb to let you break me twice

but I'm ashamed I miss you more than I can fight

repress all your feelings

and good times with me

fake every excuse 

for why you did leave

just don't go back to the past

you won't find me there

if now you want me so badly

you'll have to do a little more than stare

but it's the little things that bring me back

like a rosy cheek or hand-covered laugh

I know I shouldn't care so bad

but I'll always crave why I don't have 

I've ignored all your calls

had to avoid your eyes in the halls

things will never be the same way again

we both know too well we can't ever be just friends

I miss how things used to be

I'd dream all night of your arms around me

I miss Christmas lights strung high in trees

blushing cheeks and eyes that gleamed

I don't know why I love you now

I would stop if I only knew how

never wanted to believe you'd choose to leave

do I cross your mind when you try to sleep

stupid kids is all we'll ever be

romantics caught up in a dream

it should be simple to say goodbye

it's something I do all the time

heartbreak is such a normalcy

I'm not surprised by bruising easily

It's not a lie that love is hard

Because I think you left with a part of my heart 

words never meant to be said

and maybe all we are is some type of regret 

even when you say that we're absolutely done

I hope you hurt when you see I'm gone

so dear the boy that's ruined my mind

I know there's a little chance that you could still be mine

I might want you back here and there

since sadly some part of me can't help but care

magic in the air

desperately wanting your hands in my hair

caught in comparing Decembers again

after all that has happened I lost my best friend